DellMc's Journal

I am in a quandry. My son (age 34) thinks I should try a new doctor. I have had Chrons for 22 years and had many variations of flares, three surgeries and several stays in the hospital for flares. Right now this flare has been going on for about six months. I am currently taking MP6, Entocort, Pentasa and Flagyl. I am having trouble eating and am basically living on Ensure. I am down to about 87 lbs. and am 5'8" tall and am 58 years old. No matter what I try the weight just keeps slowly coming off. I have constant diarrhea and the only thing that happens when I try to eat more is I go to the bathroom more! Nothing is staying in there long enough to be absorbed! It isn't that I don't think another doctor wouldn't be any good it is just that after all these years and several different doctors it seems to all boil down to the same things- there is just so much out there for them to try for this condition and if it doesn't work, it doesn't work. Maybe I am being too negative but I am so tired of tests and treatments that eventually stop working. Why switch doctors when another doctor can only offer the same different meds? I am tired of all the invasive procedures with little new knowledge to be gained. I am just so tired of it all. I can only afford to take the Entocort and Pentasa for this month and then I have no way of buying it so there goes that! We will just have to see what happens when those pills stop. Between health insurance companies who don't really give a damn and the government and the ridiculous cost of everything it is a wonder anyone has anything they can do! On one hand I admire all of you in the support group who keep looking and trying new things and on the other hand it all seems so pointless, after all, how many out there have any really good remissions to speak of? I know I am sounding really down and I am sorry but sometimes this stuff just seems to get the upper hand and you want to wave a white flag! Thanks for letting me vent and I am sure tomorrow may be a brighter day. I still don't know if I will try another doctor but I will give it some serious thought....