Tipperon's Journal

I couldn't believe it the other day at Sam's club I was walking with hubby and a child calls out, boy is she fat Mommy! Irk!  here I was holding on to the cart with hubby and I sighed, I should have said something or done something.  I have never had anyone say that to me.  I know I'm a large person and I have lost almost 30 pounds since Dec 2008 but sheesh, I have never had someone do something so rude.  I just wonder what sort of parents that child has if they can say something so loudly and so rudely, they must hear that sort of thing at home alot if they can say it out loud in a store.  Poor child, what a world to grow up into when they judge a person already.  

Well, hopefully I will be below 200 soon and I'm looking forward to that.  I'm not on a diet just trying to watch what I eat and do stuff in the yard and around the house as excerise (what drs call excerise) isn't reasonable for me.  I'm happy to just be able to do the laundry, dishes and so on.  Though today I want to wash the walls, windows and do the wood work in the bedroom my smoking son has left.  He wasn't suppose to smoke in the house and still the room smells like smoke.  Then I will do the carpets and start on the rest of the house carpets and wood work and all that.  I used to want to carpet clean every fall and spring and got behind when eldest moved back home.  So back to spring cleaning, from top to bottom.  I like the way the house used to smell before the smoker moved in, LOL  funny I used to smoke years ago and never seemed to notice the smell of it.

But now I sure do!  Weird how the house took on the smell and I want it gone and a fresh house again.  So off to cleaning and hopefully the house will smell lovely again.  

I don't know about you but sometimes I think the worse thing about fibro isn't the pain but the other effects like the tiredness. I couldn't get out the bed more then a couple of hrs the other day, it was terrible!  Also, the brain fog I get is so bad that I just can't read or understand anything.  It is like I am lost and my mind is just gone.  Pain I can deal with, there are things I can do to help but some of the other stuff you just have to hope tomorrow will be a better day.  I still don't understand how drs can say there isn't such a thing as Fibro.  Or they look at me like I'm making it all up.  I'm looking for a new Dr and have to see if they will take me, though I haven't met them yet.  We only have so many drs here in town and I have to have a referral and give them my records before they decide.  Shouldn't it be me who decides?  Life here is weird at times.

I want a dr who understands about fibro and will listen to me and not just look at their own stuff and not listen to me.  With the limited drs here in town I might have to see someone else, but the distance to get to them makes it a problem.  I don't even drive at times cause my fibro impacts my judgement so badly. I don't what to hurt anyone.  I often wish I had something that could be helped like MS or Lupus or something, I know that is terrible to say but this fibro is just a word and it needs to be something people take seriously so we can get help and not just a trash bag from drs.  I Know people say it isn't just something we give people if we don't know what is wrong with them, but drs often think that is just what it is.  I had one dr tell me, "Just because someone gave you this diagnoses doesn't mean anything, and the pain killers you are on don't work for fibro anyway, I have scientific proof."  and here I am sitting there and she didn't even ask me if the pain killers work or not for me.  Sheesh.  She also didn't believe that a dr diagnosed me either, when I have brought the records from the other dr to them time and time again.  I wonder if they even read the medical records.  But of course these are military drs.  can't expect to much from them, irk.

Terrible to say but for the over 20 some years of military drs I haven't found to many who care, or even know what they are doing.  Sad to say.  and if I do find one off they send them to iraq or some place and I lose the dr for some nurse or person playing dr.  sigh, enough complaining I guess.  Time to get to work.

Take care and hopefully your day is going swell!