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February 5, 2009 5:40am
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ltebrwnsugr
9:25pm, November 21, 2008
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About Me
ltebrwnsugr
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About Me
I am a 47 yr old female who has had Fibromyalgia symptoms for over 6 years, but have just been finally diagnosed having within the last couple of years. I also have Degenerative Joint Disease. Everything is so difficult for me, even driving hurts. I do work, but thanks for FMLA -- I am able to take off work 10 days a month, but being a single mother of a teenager I really can't afford taking all that time off. So I stay at work and am so moody and take it out on everybody at work.
I am a 47 yr old female who has had Fibromyalgia symptoms for over 6 years, but have just been finally diagnosed having within the last couple of years. I also have Degenerative Joint Disease. Everything is so difficult for me, even driving hurts. I do work, but thanks for FMLA -- I am able to take off work 10 days a month, but being a single mother of a teenager I really can't afford taking all that time off. So I stay at work and am so moody and take it out on everybody at work.
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Where would we be w/o Family?
January 23, 2009 4:40am
I have been out of work since Oct. 17, and I am feeling so much better. My pain is not as intensive as often. I would feel as though I had been hit …
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Doing Really Great
December 5, 2008 4:17am
I realize that my job was really too stressful on me, to the point that I had started bleeding internally and had debilitating pain in my stomach …
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Life is Good
November 13, 2008 4:07am
I am not working right now, I have been on short term disability, and have been out from work for about 5 weeks now. My illnesses are not so …
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a joke for yournGrant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,rnThe courage to change the things I cannot accept,rnAnd the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people... Read MorernI had to kill today because they pissed me off.rnrnAnd also, help me to be careful of the toes I step on todayrnAs they may be connected to the ass that I have to kiss tomorrow.rnrnHelp me to always give 100% at work... 12% on Monday, 23% on Tuesday,rn40% on Wednesday, 20% on Thursday, and 5% on Friday.rnrnAnd help me to remember...rnWhen I'm having a really bad day,rnAnd it seems that people are trying to piss me off,rnThat it takes 42 muscles to frownrnAnd only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me.
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Hello folks, I have read all the entries of Captainishmael. I feel compelled to let you HEAR my side. We were HAPPILY married for 7 years. He had a tendency to get "hurt" while working a job he did not enjoy doing. In 8 years he was "HURT" 4 times. Let's face it work is just that WORK. There are people in this world who will get hurt to AQUIRE the sympathy of other people. Captainishmael's real name is Jeff. Norris - Note the period, he signes this on all of his papers. He would state that he was the only man with a period. This MAN was very lazy, content to let his wife (me) who is 18 years older than him work hard, clean, cook, even do yard work. While he would sit and play video games. I made more money then he did. That was until 2005 when he found out his father had brain cancer. He hatched a plan to leave me. He knew he was getting money when his father died. I worked really hard and bought him a plane ticket several times so he could go from Idaho to Alabama to see his father. When he came back after a week down there, he finally got a GOOD job making more money than me for the first time in our marriage. Looking back this was so that he could leave with the thought "Look how I had a job for her."This job lasted for 6 months and then he got "HURT" Now I am not saying that he did not get hurt, but I believe that he got hurt on purpose. He loved to FEEL pain. He would do anything for attention like that. From June 15, 2006 to December 16, 2006 he did nothing but sit on his butt and play video games. It was a mutual agreement that he leave to go get a job @ Edison Chouest in Louisanna. So, he left Idaho on December 16, 2006. His father died on December 18, 2006. He told me our marriage was over on December 28, 2006. He got a job working on the boats in January 2007. I do so afirm that not one time in our marriage did he say he was unhappy. He was treated like a king. I gave him surprise birthday parties, he came home to a spotless home, with a hot home cooked meal 5 nights out of 7, even the outside was beautiful. The so called abuse did occur as follows - I kept asking him what was wrong (I now know he was plotting to leave) I went nuts three times, I slapped him and pushed him and broke things. I am not saying that this was right, it was wrong. But, have you ever felt like no matter what you did for a person it was never good enough. Each time he would push me away, I would do more and more for him. I finally snapped after the emotional with holding of his love from me. He would never make any decisions with me, as he put it then if it was a mistake it would be my mistake not his. He came back to Idaho February 2007, telling me that he made a mistake and wanted to work out our marriage. He said a prayer that morning - (and I quote) Dear God this woman is an amazing woman. I know that you will work this out between us and make it right again. He waited till I went to work and grabbed some things and snuck away - just like the sneak he always was. One example - one day I was doing yard work he spotted me and turned onto a side road. I know that it was him because of the truck and the fact that he drives with his lights on, even during the day. I questioned him and he denied this. He did not want to help. As far as his dog is concerened, I moved down south in August 2007 and brought his dog with me. (the dog was actully a wolf-hybred that I bought him, I took care of him as well.) The house he said he bought was his brothers. He was allowed to stay there. I came down and went into the house. The police were called by his sister-in-law and they told me that I could not stay there. I asked them what to do with the dog and they told me to call everyone and tell them the dog was there. I left the dog on the porch with food and water and called his mother, aunt, brother and grand mother. His brother went to the the house and because the dog growled at him, his brother put a bullet in the dogs head. Jeff told me this fact, when I asked him where Jekota was. If I broke into the house like he said I did WHY didn't the police arrest me right then and there? I did not steal any checks. Last but not least dear friends, this man is GAY. He was not interested in a sexual relationship. We were married and did not have relations until that night. Beautiful right? Wrong, we made love one time. Why would a straight man who never had a sexual relationship only want to make love one time? If anyone was sexually abused it was me. I was STARVED for love. I am happily single now. I have been burned three times - a peta file the first, a crack addict the second and the last completely confused me. He is a gay lazy man who hides behind a strong woman. He also will do anything his brother tells him to do too. I will not fall for anyone again. Please forgive any miss spellings. That was one thing he always insisted on was perfect spelling. Too bad he did not know how to love........... If you have any questions feel free to ask. God Bless
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Happy Easter!Sorry not doing much have diabetes now but God will help.
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Close Fibromyalgia
I just want to die! There is so much pain, I can't move!
Treatments
- Lyrica Working / Worked
- It has brought my pain level down from 1-3 notches, depending on the day.
- Cyclobenzaprine Working / Worked
- I just happened to stumble over this drug. I was having severe back spasms and asked my Doc for something to relieve them. He prescribed this. Well low and behold, I found my Fibro pain decreasing also. I couldn't believe it. All other meds barely worked. Why didn't the docs prescribe this sooner.
Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed with bipolar 4 years ago. At the time I was suicidal. I am taking Lithium and clonazopam. It took a couple of years of taking several mixtures of meds before we finally got it right and these seem to be doing the trick. I don't have many set backs now. I used to be a cutter and was always depressed or on a high energy level, go getter. Tried Geodon and it made me so crazy, also tried seroquel and my anxiety shot up.
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Open Degenerative Joint Disease
I have had degenerative joint disease for over 10 years. It only get worse and harder to walk and do anything. My knees are so messed up I have to walk very slowly, or else they twist and I am bedridden for at least a month. I can't walk stairs, I can't run, and people just don't understand, they tell me I can move my legs faster all I have to do is step it up?????, cuz I am only 47.
Open Chronic Pain
I have had degenerative joint disease since '89, I started with this crazy Fibro about 7 years ago, it has really peaked in the last year. I am getting to the point that I cannot work. It is affecting my mind and my insides very badly. NOw I have started having pains in my legs and feet that feel like someone is pounding a blunt object into my body. It comes all of a sudden and I scream in agonizing pain.
Treatments
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- I have really found some relief in my muscles with this. With this medication I am able to relax a little more. And it is not so hard to wash my hair. Or to reach for things, etc.
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- i have tried a heating pad and hot baths, and they do relieve my back pain and pain in my arms, but I am unable to get in and out of the bathtub now.
- Hydrocodone Somewhat Helpful
- this sometimes works, not all the time.
- Lyrica Somewhat Helpful
- this brings my pain down a notch. So if my pain is at a 3-4 it brings it down to a 2-3 and so on.
- Marijuana Somewhat Helpful
- this works GREAT. One set back, it is against the law.
Open Anxiety
I am a survivor of spousal physical, mental and verbal abuse. I was married to him for over 8 years, and was hospitalized twice when I was pregnant. I was also abused by my father and neglected by my mother. Every errand in life is such a HUGE chore on me. Some are just TOO great. I don't know how to handle month to month living duties anymore.
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Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I was married to a police officer that beat me for 8 yrs. Sent me to the hospital twice, both time I was pregnant. He did spend some time in jail.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- Wish I could still do this.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It helps as long as I am doing this on a regular basis.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- If I get into a really good book, also a good self help book, it helps till I am done reading it.
- Seroquel Not Working
- Did nothing to me but make me feel more anxious.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- At the Abused shelter, I talked it out, and we all shared stories.
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- Just started... Dont know how it will work.
