I Know Who You Are
December 20, 2008 5:38pm
I Know Who You Are
I know who you are......I see your face reflected in mine. Ravaged by tears, distorted by the unfathomable pain that is the cruel …
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carasmom
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About Me
I'm married to a wonderful man. He's not perfect and neither am I so that makes us a perfect match. I'm a mother of 2 Cara and John... Cara died Oct 30, 2006, She is still my child, I am still her mama... John you know you're my favorite son... *Smile* I am grandma to 5... T'Ben, Elizabeth, Jonathan, Logan and Gabby... that's from oldest to youngest... so no arguing why your name isn't first... I feel very blessed to love and be loved by all my family... On earth and in heaven...
Interests
Family, Family, Family, people, changing things if I can, Music, musicals, live theater, pinochle, reading
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Recent Activity
December 27, 2008
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carasmom gave gghcgail a hug 10:44am
I have a friend here on DS who has Raynaulds disease also and wondered if she is on your friend's list…
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carasmom commented on BZberta’s journal entry Today is the Sunday before Christmas 10:39am
I hope you get to feeling better soon enough so that you can go see your grandchildren and son and all...…
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carasmom gave DianaLynn a hug 10:35am
You are a very kind and giving person and I really appreciate it and just wanted to tell you so. Hugs…
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carasmom commented on
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This object is private, sorry!A lovely picture…
December 18, 2008
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Holiday Greetings
December 18, 2008 11:32am
I wanted to make sure that I wished all my DS friends the best of the season... I know this is a hard time for many of us... me too... but I'm …
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Journal Entry for December 2, 2008
December 2, 2008 5:22pm
Cara I don't love you less... I actually love you more because I think through others you're telling me that I can love and respect you more …
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Journal Entry for November 24, 2008
November 24, 2008 8:46am
(\__/) This is bunny. Copy and paste(='.'=) bunny into your signature to(")_(") help him gain world domination
I see this …
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Journal Entry for November 15, 2008
November 15, 2008 5:48am
I haven't written a meaningful journal entry in some time. I'm going through yet another adjustment in this road... trying not to think …
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Hug
hugging u tight in the start of the new year"2009"....luv you
Celebration
Put on your high heels and lets party and celebrate the coming up NEW YEAR 2009.. http://www.llerrah.com/images/nywo...
Ray of Sunshine
Elissa, hoping the new year brings us some peace and understanding. Lots of hugs, jake's mom, kathy
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Hug
elsie she is on my list but I don;t hear much from her. will go to her and say hello. hope you had a good christmas and a better new year. love ya gail
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Santa
Count down has started, and I wanted to come bye and wish you and Merry Christmas..Love you bunches! Rebeka
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildMy daughter Cara died October 30, 2006 and its rough. Cara's death was an accident... but it seems it was inevitable... Cara's life the last few months was controlled by her addiction... and it was like that final phone call was going to come... no matter how hard we tried... Its been hell...
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I cry and cry.... the tears are always there waiting to spill over... Nothing will ever erase the pain but time is easing it...
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes to ease the pain you have to get mad...
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Was unalbe to keep going and its very hard going it alone... Cest la vie
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Writing, redirecting my thoughts, trying to count my blessings...
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- I try to pray but have become estranged from my church... I locked myself inside my home with my pain and my anger... Now I'm trying to get out...
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes I can't seem to be distracted but sometimes I can.... and that's mainly what I have to do...
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- Its a two edged sword.... sometimes its good... sometimes I end up crying helplessly....
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Just knowing they love me helps... and needing to keep on for them because I love them... is important...
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- My online support groups help a lot... Nothing will erase the pain... I think we just have to learn to live with it...
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Writing is my talking... and it helps...
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- As much as it can time helps...
Close Bipolar Disorder
problems with depression and anxiety since my teens... I've been lucky had some great counselors & educational opportunities that allowed me to accept and stand up for myself in ways I would have never thought I could. I'm dealing with the death of my daughter and I'm not doing so hot but I have tools that I know enough now to help myself... I'm 50 now so I've lived long enough to help myself and maybe you too
Open Depression
Dx bipolar... fact: I am somewhat - far worse times with depression. It can be hell made a good connection with a counselor and education doing fairly well. Since I've been unofficially encouraged to leave depression supporters I'm here... Honesty compels me to admit I suggested first maybe it wasn't the place for me... ty lightholder I followed through and removed depression supporters from my list of communities..I honestly think I can help others and myself through my experiences.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- the dr who prescribed effexor was so enthusiastic about it I found it difficult to tell him that it was one of the worst meds I'd ever taken and finally dropped it ama
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- years of counseling finally a solid connection with Ms Francis who taught me to stand up for myself she told us over and over we need to stand beside and for ourselves
- Xanax Working / Worked
- helpful on a prn basis for me
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
50 years old... memories can still hurt me. I hesitate to join this community worry... family members will be angry at me for airing family stuff. I find I want to help others more than I want to worry about those family members who might find out and be angry with me. Even though I've written some about my childhood and the abuse mostly I've kept it to myself. What happened as a child has affected every facet of my life and will continue to. I just have to work around it the best I can.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I function just not terribly well. I believe I had the self confidence beaten out of me years ago... and there's no fixing it.
Open Infidelity
Reading the definition of infidelity some folks would say I don't belong here... but I know how one thing leads to another...
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- I'm sad and I'm mad and I don't know which emotion is strongest. I saw where my husband had joined a senior partner group. read his profile... legally separated... OH???
Open Sexual Abuse
Like too many kids adults took advantage of my natural need for love and approval... For years I blamed myself...
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
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