Journal

Physical pain I can handle

Emotional not so much

That’s why I use cutting

As my crutch

Physical pain goes away in time

Emotional pain never does

Cutting helps me dull it

So its not as bad as it was

I try not to dwell on it

If I cut I just move on

But I get so upset that one doesn’t do it

And I end up with a ton

I haven’t cut in three weeks

But the thought is still there

No matter what I do

Triggers are everywhere

I try not to think about it

But it’s always on my mind

I’m not sure how to stop it

A new way to deal is what I need to find

Not cutting takes a lot out of me

I have to ignore the yearning for blood

Because if I don’t these tears

And the scarlet stream will cause a flood

So I’ll try not to do it

Although I won’t promise anything

I’m trying as hard as I can for you

But this has always been my thing

Please try not to judge me if I fail

Cuz that’s not what I need

Just tell me that you love me

Even if I don’t succeed