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OwlJulie 
2:11pm, October 8, 2008
I've been shy since I was 3. I do not have many friends because I am afraid of being judged. I have just 2 friends (and one is my sister). Often in social situations I am asked "Why are you quiet?" Sometimes I get fearful in clubs even though I belong to them already and love the club. I drop out before others can judge me, out of fear. I often worry I am not good enough for others to love me.
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I know what shy is. I was way too shy as a little girl & teen. I never outgrew it altogether. I do some of the same things you do because I am afraid of being judged not good enough. I am a constant worrier.
I do hope somehow you can get some help & not spend your life like I did. It's short & we need to live as much as we can. Love is an important part of giving someone the courage to face unpleasant people & situations. If you have one friend that could help you it's a start. Try small things one step at a time. I wish I had someone to help me do the same. I was afraid to try anything that put me on display. No confidence at all. But I could turn around in the right situation & fake my way through it.
You are just as good or better than anyone else. They say we have to love ourselves in order to navigate the rest of life. I am always worried about my family & do not know how to love myself. Never have.
I urge you to please not spend your life like me.
Hugs, Reader46, Judy
reader46
Thanks for your Hugs,
It helps to hear these things from you.
I do need love to overcome this.
I hide from rather than overcome my fears,
I worry about what people think of me or what I do or say,
I don't want to be judged,
and I'm afraid of being known.
I am not enjoying my life, because of my fears.
I want to be close to people.
Julie
OwlJulie