teenytania's Journal

Well, it has been a little over two weeks since my surgery.  Some days I am glad that I did it and some days I feel as though I made a huge mistake.  It was rough those first couple of days I came home, but also every morning I wake up feels like those first couple of days.  I think I am depressed from having to stay at home so much and can't play with my kids like I used to.  Especially my one year old who keeps coming up to me holding his hands  up and I cant pick him up yet.  It really breaks my heart.  Also the doctor called and said that they are going DOWN on my pain medication when it just seems like they got things right.  I can pretty much be functional during the day so now what is going to happen.  Maybe i havent given things enough time.  My family is frustrated, I am frustrated, and I feel like I cant take it anymore.  Maybe I need some time with a shrink.  My husband gets mad at me when I cry which seems to be everyday but I dont know what else to do.  I know that there is someone out there that is going through the same thing I am. I have to remember that things will get better. Tired of being upset and want to get back to normal.