pstrevels's Journal

Here it is late at night, and I am wide awake. Still can't seem to get the sleeping any better. Honey, I still miss you so much. Still not happy with this life, but it is definetly getting easier. I don't know maybe it's time to find that peace I have been searching for these last 13 months. The peace you had when you died. The peace I know you wanted so desperately for me, that if you could've you would've stayed around longer just so I could find it. I talked to Don today. He still misses you just as much as i do. I am kinda glad you aren't around, cause he is in pretty bad shape. I think it would've broke your heart to see him in the shape he is in. But I really enjoyed the talk. He told me that you knew your time was short, and you talked about me all the time. And he said our marriage was rock solid. You know I really didn't need him to tell me these things, cause I always knew our love was special. But it did help me to hear them. You  know when the one you love is gone, it's just nice to hear other people tell you stories and things that you might've not known. He just reassured me that our love was special to you. I don't know maybe i am rambling, but it picked me up, but also made me sad if that makes sense? He told me that you wanted me to have a happy life, and that i need to do that for you. Just to play the cards i was dealt, and make the most out of my life. But my life isn't much without you in it. Oh baby, thanks for the dream last week. It was really good to see you and hold you again. Well not much else going on here. Taking a week off next week, not doing anything special. But gonna get a much needed break. Well baby, I had better get to bed, and try to go to sleep. Remember I love you more than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow. You are always in my thoughts, and in my heart, and you always will be.

Love you forever and always,

your loving wife,

Pam