Journal

I have made progress on both my goals and building on my current relationship is something that will never be complete because it is a constant movement.  We are strong together and will continue to be that way because we both understand each other very well and are very much in love and in each other's head...My career goal is coming close to a final because I have one more interview with the VP of Operations for a company...final interview...good luck to me!  lol

Hey guys and gals!   Long time no see...Well, just to let everyone know...I have beat it and I am happy finally...not once again but finally truly happy.  I have met someone who has made me feel like I have never felt ever in my life and I feel so blessed that she was put in my life.  She has shown me that I do deserve to be happy and that I am a good person.  On the note of my divorce, my ex-wife is being her same typical vindictive self and now trying to take my son completely out of my life but I know that in the end it will all come out and he will know that I am doing everything that I can to be a part of his life!  Anyways, back to the good...so this girl I met is someone that has shown me that I was never truly in love and that love is something that I am still completely capable of having and sharing.  This has been the best of the best and I am sooo glad to know that she is in my corner whenever I need someone...the way it is suppose to be!  Yay me!

I am not ok.  I have nothing now.  I had the perfect life, and then bam nothing...I want to die and end the pain...I know it is selfish but the pain is just too much and it is not going away!  Damn this life and damn love!  Marriage is nothing when people don't realize that unconditional love is the key!  I hope that I die a quick and painless death because I have felt enough pain already!