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Ok, so my day started out pretty well, but in the afternoon everything pretty much went to shit with trying to not b/p. Come on, 1 day? i couldn't do it for one day? God i am weak. I must say today was the first time I actually TRIED to not b/p during the day. I started paying attention to what I was feeling and I seriously could not deal with it. It was the most uncomfortable feeling trying to resist, I didnt know what to do with myself. I dont even know how to describe it. It was like torment by my own mind, i couldnt even concentrate or think straight. I know this is something i must go through and withstand if i want to recover, but SHit! i dont know if i can handle this feeling. I felt like i was being torn in different directions. it sucks, i think i would rather feel some sort of physical pain than this feeling of unrest. i dont know how i am going to do this.
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I know what you mean, the feeling of torment in your own mind is the most awful feeling, it's like you want to crawl out of your own mind and run away from it. The thing you have to get over is the mindset that purging is the better option - in the short term, maybe, but in the long-term, do you really want to stay like this? Your body needs the nutrients that you are getting rid of. If you allow the food to go through it's natural process through the body, you will absorb all the nutrients and the body is such a wonderful creation it gets rid of all the crap for us anyway! Here's a thought - it has been proven (trust me on this one, I saw a whole TV programme on it, with all the science included and it was fascinating) that a calcium-rich diet causes 100% more fat to be excreted from the body i.e. not absorbed. They tested around 100 people and all the ones who took calcium had 100% more fat in their (sorry) poo because the body got rid of it! Maybe take calcium supplements while you're on your road to recovery? For peace of mind. Will help your bones too, which will surely start suffering should you continue to purge. xx
RedSuze
Thank you for your words of wisdom, Suze. I am going to try and do this again today. already took a multivitamin, prozac (just started taking that again the day before yesterday) and tons of milk in my coffee (for the calcium :P )
thinner
It does pass if u can make it through feeling crazy! when i have resisted urges when feeling this way i have broke down crying but that is actually healthier than b/p! and then usually wake up the nxtmorning feeling stronger!
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