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cnkc47 
2:10pm, September 17, 2009
Well,
It has been forever since I have been on here... But now I'm back!
I kind of left everything and everyone for awhile, even people in my real life. I spent a lot of time alone because I had to make some major changes in my life. There are a lot of steps I still need to take, but I think the decision I made (to break up with my boyfriend) was definately the right one. It was a hard one to make though, because he is such an awesome guy. But I just wasn't attracted to him. For a long time I thought that it was my fault that I wasn't... b/c of what happened to me... But after taking the time to really think about it.. I just realized... that I just wasn't attracted to him like that... and THAT IS OKAY.... So i decided that there must be someone better out there for me.. And just because I had something horrible happen to me when I was growing up, doesn't mean I have to settle for less in a relationship. And I can tell the difference. I need to start trusting myself and what I think more!
So I am back everyone.. And glad to be! I missed all of you!
UPDATED GOALS
Have confidence in myself
Progress 10%
Encouragements: 0
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Hey all!
You should all go and check out my blog. I have been posting some of my excerts here, but it has pictures and is a better layout on my blog. I also have a lot of past entries on there. I ask so many questions on my blog, and I am tired of not getting answers. So please go and check it out and let me know what you think and if you have any answers for me...
Here is the link:
http://secretsofmine47.blogspot.com/
Thanks!
-me
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i took the time to read it "sparkle eyes"' hahah. i admire you for going through all of this and trying to work it out. it just hurts so much that a godamn parent has to screw over an innocent child like this and change there life for ever. some frigging gift huh...
i can tell you this one true thing...
your not gross nor dirty or anything else you may feel.
your only one thing...your a sweet, beautiful, dear, broken hearted spirit who has been betrayed in life. i'm so sorry about that. i can only say...i would see you only as the most pure and beautiful girl in the world, and not one single thing anyone ever did to you would change that. it had nothing to do with you...it was he that did the crime, and he that made you feel the shame...but in my and in our eyes...your clean as the snow and your also a hero of mine now. never give up and please dont let him win. dont give him the power to keep on hurting you after all these years. be free and know your loved alwasy.
dennis oxox i'm on our side
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i hope you missed me the most!!! hahahah i bet that other guy is going to miss you so much...i hope this works out well for both of you. may all the blessings in life be yours and your back on top again and stay there.
denn oxox
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