I am a 23 year old college student. I love music, movies, and spending time with people that are close to me. I have been going through a lot lately, but God has been getting me through it.
I am a 23 year old college student. I love music, movies, and spending time with people that are close to me. I have been going through a lot lately, but God has been getting me through it.
Singing, writing my book, cupcakes, MUSIC, reading, watching movies, clothes and shopping, cooking and baking A LOT :), decorating, talking, laughing, and more...
Singing, writing my book, cupcakes, MUSIC, reading, watching movies, clothes and shopping, cooking and
June 30, 2009 7:26pm
Well,
It has been forever since I have been on here... But now I'm back!
I kind of left everything and everyone for awhile, even people …
February 4, 2009 12:33pm
Hey all!
You should all go and check out my blog. I have been posting some of my excerts here, but it has pictures and is a better …
February 3, 2009 2:08pm
The colors surrounding are vibrant. Reds, oranges, bronze, black, and deep blue. The circular walls are beautiful. Each color …
January 22, 2009 2:40pm
Today I feel like I was offered a glimpse of hope for the problem I have been having. I realized that I have no understanding of what …
Child abuse is the most terrible act that a human being can commit outside of murder. May God bless you in your life as you work through the terrible consequences.
With much love and affection Rich
Sending thoughts of love and healing your way!
sorry i didnt get back to your message not goin so well at all
What's wrong sweetheart? You can PM me if you want and you have my aim screen name. (((((((((((Safe Warm HUGS)))))))))))))
thanks for reply on self injury.
that helped :)
you okay? xx
After going through a lot of family problems and abuse growing up, depression has been something that I struggle with so much now. Some days it is easier to deal with, but it is a constant uphill battle every day. Luckily I have a lot of support, but some days I get tired of dealing with it. For a while I was suicidal and cut, but I don't do that anymore. I am growing and getting through the tough stuff I guess.
I grew up with a lot of emotional abuse in my family. Everyone seemed angry all of the time and had to have "control" over my sister and I. A lot of things that were said to me wore me down until I had very low self esteem and was just used to not standing up for myself. I basically took the road where you turn numb and just take it. But I don't live there anymore.
I don't want to say a lot, but this is what I went through when I was younger. It has damaged me sometimes to where I feel like I am beyond repair. But I am on the road to recovery. Thanks to God and many friends that are helping me, but the daily battle is beyond difficult.
For the past few years, I have gone through a lot of anxiety problems. I worry about little things until they become huge problems and I have to calm down intensely before I can deal with them. Anxiety has caused problems in my relationships and in every part of my life. It is an ongoing battle, but I am getting better.
Ever since I have been dealing with anxiety and depression related to abuse I endured, I get panic attacks whenever I get a bad memory from the past, encounter too much stress that builds up, or a sudden new situation. I shake, can't breath, gasp over and over, get dizzy, and can't concentrate.
Basically it was my father for my whole childhood up to middle school.
I used to cut (lasted about a year)... Due to dealing with past sexual abuse. Now I don't cut anymore, but I want to every day. I have also dealt with thoughts of suicide for like 8 years.
