still trying
July 12, 2008 5:47am
And oh yes I'm very 'trying' at times infact so much so I even do my own head in at times and most days don't know which way is up …
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cavegirl7
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About Me
How life/situations change, only a couple of weeks ago was writing a good/positive profile but having just read it back decided it's not me anymore, yes i'm rapidly on the road to nowhere constantly sabbotaging any sobriety/recovery I have embarked/enjoyed following detox, things are not good for me right now but won't bore anyone with detail, suffice to say I got a taste of life and living not so long ago and desperately want to touch/feel/taste get it back.
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mainly my dog other than that reading, writing poetry, chatting, a successful recovery program.
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home sweet home
July 6, 2008 11:55am
Like a fool actually put myself in a position to use again ie went back to visit my ex in sth london and boy was it yet another bad experience, the …
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as per feelin like shit
June 29, 2008 3:21am
dont quite know why im callin for help coz im startin to truly believe im beyond it yeh thats how i feel like just now, yellin at the top of my …
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feeling better
June 28, 2008 8:32am
Feeling a lot better, detoxed myself from co-codamol pills (pain killers that don't state they contain morphine, not good for an ex-user like …
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AGAIN
June 23, 2008 2:33pm
fucked up again and had a drink pint of lager in pub and one can of tenants super which was all enough to make my head spin, cant deny it didnt feel …
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Close Alcoholism
started hitting mums drink cabinet bout 12yrs old by 15 was out drinking in pubs/clubs, during my 20's worked but couple of pints lunchtime, 2btls wine at night, by 30 was an alcoholic also in the grip of hard drugs, my road to recovery has been hell and i've still a long way to go, only wks outta detox. i struggle daily, hourly even, its hard.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- AA Meetings Too Soon to Tell
- so far so good, AA very supportive and enlightening. I plan to do 12 steps with a sponsor their as my day program does not cater for this, I almost always feel stronger when leaving but still but its still early days yet.
- Detox Working / Worked
- 10 day detox for alcohol and heroin addiction, yes it worked and was suprisingly comfortable and having done 2 in past know what im talking about there i think!
- Librium Working / Worked
- as stated very safe, comfortable experience when monitored by prof.
- Naltrexone Not Working
- took one 25ml night before due to leave detox, had a bad reaction, felt like I was cluckin so wouldn't take the chance next day wen told 'it will either be in system and ok or you'll go into double cluck, thanks but no thanks
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- only been going 2 wks so too early to comment.
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- like i struggled to get outta a wheelchair following serious accident so i am stugglin in pretty nuch that same way now, perhaps this is worse. willpower and never forgettin where i would be going if i pick up again and that is a one way trip to hell in this life and the hereafter
Close Accidents
push bike accident '91 initially paralysed from neck down, muscles contracted during physio, Q'will i ever walk again?'A'put it this way jayne sometimes people in your position suprise us' wot position i asked myself chart read 'spastic paraplygic', thro' self medication gradually taught myself how to walk again to present day, still aches and pains but bearable, limited mobility, CT6 CT7 damaged ie hands quite deformed, cant run etc.
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- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- only went once as hos conveniently failed to tell me bout cab collect, no doubt financial, found it embarassing, difficult, hard to travel by bus so didnt go back.
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