Journal Entry for July 1, 2009
July 1, 2009 12:57am
narkissose
5:52pm, October 28, 2009
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About Me
narkissose
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About Me
"Hell and heaven are within you. The doors are very close to each other: with the right hand you can open one, with the left hand you can open another. With just a change of your mind, your being is transformed- from heaven to hell and from hell to heaven. Whenever you act unconsciously without awareness, you are in hell; whenever you are conscious, when ever you act with full awareness, you are in heaven”. ~Osho I find this very inspiring for my quit effort. For all those who have quit or are trying ... be really "aware" of your actions and see the difference. Earlier when things used to go wrong I used to feel so flustered and take a smoke to soothe myself, but now when things go wrong, I try to be aware that smoking wont help but keeping a cool rational mind will.
"Hell and heaven are within you. The doors are very close to each other: with the right hand you can open one, with the left hand you can open another. With just a change of your mind, your being is transformed- from heaven to hell and from hell to heaven. Whenever you act unconsciously without awareness, you are in hell; whenever you are conscious, when ever you act with full awareness, you are in heaven”. ~Osho I find this very inspiring for my quit effort. For all those who have quit or are trying
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Interests
Have been suffering a lot due to anxiety and mild depression since I was 16-17 and only now have been to get a control over it. I have come to except the defects in me and live my life with gratitude. I used to hate myself for liking men for a long period of time, I used to be self-deprecating and the target of bullies, I used to get miserable seeing my family suffer, I used to get too tensed up about job and work, I used to get tensed about meeting and making friends and going out but all that has changed. I am a better person now because of facing all those challenges, a person who is able to face life with strength and courage. I wouldn't ask God to change anything, he has been more than kind to me.
Have been suffering a lot due to anxiety and mild depression since I was 16-17 and only now have been
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11 months smoke free
December 15, 2008 7:36am
going good with smoking cessation, I feel I have always been a non-smoker, but regarding the weight, even though there has been no significant weight …
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Hugbook
Congrats
So glad you're tobacco free my friend and hope the vacation was fantastic! I've been up and down and all around, you're always welcome to read my journals they tend to be pretty newsy in regards to my life! Take care!
xo
I’m With You
Hey no probs chick,that's what we're all here for.Glad you are doing good x
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Go For It
Just stopping by with some encouragement for you - noticed your staus,you must be feeling so proud chick. Keep up the mint work,you're doing great! x
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Hug
Just checking in with you and hoping all is well....glad to see your status! This nicotine addiction is crazy makiing, damn near slipped myself recently! Hang in there my friend.
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Get Well Soon!
Wow,scary stuff.Really glad you're ok though chick. I hope the quit goes ok for ya.We're all here to support you remember that ok?Mine's going class thanks.Take care x
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Goals
Progress
25 %
Goal End Date is Dec 30, 08 327 days ago.Current Weight (KGs)86 -
Support Groups
Close Tooth Grinding
Have been suffering from tooth grinding since last 3 years. I noticed it when my gums started to recede and while most dentists attributed it to hard brushing but only one of them pointed the correct cause. The diagnosis was confirmed by my room mates who would hear me grinding at night. Then it got confirmed to me when I started hearing a clicking sound when I opened my jaw in the mornings.
Treatments
- Mouthguard Working / Worked
- The mouth guard works at stopping just the wear on the teeth surface. But the pressure on the gums is still there. So you have to take other approaches, like cutting back on alcohol, smoking, stress and blah blah. For me it got a lot better with combination of depression and anxiety treatment, exercise, and stopping alcohol and smoking.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionHave been diagnosed with major depression in September 2007 but have been depressed since 2006 and have been a chain smoker and drinker.
Treatments
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Just 5mg has been going on since a year and it worked wonders. But I started showing good effects within a week, so I guess it is more of a placebo effect. But I dont mind as long as I am more in control and happy.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Strength Training Working / Worked
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
Have been smoking on and off about 12 ciggs a day for 7 years but now quit since January 2008.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Followed the various online programs and advices and prepared myself for the big day by reducing the ciggs everday. Left it a week before the big day and am keeping the quit since.
Open Alcoholism
Have been depressed for over 2 years and was on a binge of daily drinking for that time. Started treatment for depression and left alcohol completely except at parties.
Treatments
- Willpower Working / Worked
- Git treated for depression and now have learnt to control my drinking only to social occasions.
Open Stress Management
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Strength Training Working / Worked
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I am around 20 pounds over weight.
Treatments
- Counting Calories Working / Worked
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Weight Watchers Working / Worked
- Strength Training Working / Worked
Open Bisexuality
narkissose hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Sexual Abuse
narkissose hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Healthy Relationships
Treatments
Open Healthy Sex
narkissose hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Gay Men's Challenges
narkissose hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Fitness Goals
Type: Improve overall fitnessI have quit smoking in January 2008 and want to loose the weight gain of about 10 kgs.
Treatments
- Running Working / Worked
- Weight Training Working / Worked
Open Loneliness
I am nearing 30 and have not been able to commit to a relationship with a girl for long because I am a bi and think that I cant sustain a long term relationship without "coming out", which I dont want to.
Open Accidents
I survived a high speed car crash with a truck short time ago.
