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Sienasmom 
9:40am Yesterday
Some people may say I'm crazy, but I know you guys won't. Last night, my baby spoke to me. It made me cry at first, but now I look at it as a sign....a sign that she really is watching over me.
I was having a bad night. Not unusual, to say the least. But I've really been trying to adjust to this "new normal," and Sienasdad just put me in a place where I was feeling like every attempt I make to try to have some happiness in my life is futile.
Anyway, it was late, and I walked into the livingroom and went over to my chubby kitty and just nestled my face in her fur....just a bit of a comfort thing....and as I did, I heard so clearly, a tiny voice say, "I want Mommy to be happy." I immediately burst into tears, as my poor cat looked at me in fear. Then I just sat down and let it wash over me.....She wants me to be happy. I'm trying to stop living in this self imposed "bubble" of sadness that has been my life for the past year and a half....and last night I just felt so defeated, until she said that, and now I really know she IS with me, like I've thought all along.
Thank you, Siena May, for being the angel always on my shoulder and in my heart. Mommy is really trying to live, and now that I know that you truly are trying to take care of me, I'll try even harder. You are still my life little one.....Missing and loving you forever......
Comments
*tears* oh Rae, that sweet little angel is always watching over her mommy and she does want you to be happy. *tears*
arihanna
oh Rae, she does want you to be happy. I'm sure she's up there dancing hard for you :)
Moosesmom
Such a beautiful moment...I'm so glad Siena came to you. Thank you for sharing.
nanny99
so sweet, a moment to cherish.
brandylee82
that is so beautiful... and no we don't think you are crazy!
michelle4600
How sweet.....You are definetely not crazy! :)
wandersjewell
That is so nice. She will always be with you.
smmcclung
thats so awesome Rae!!
LaylaF
what an awesome experience, Rae!
NVDoula