DarkHollywood

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I was sexually molested by a family member whom my mom, brother and I visited him almost every year or so because he lived in another state. Once or twice, he came to our house, and it happened then. Eventually, in the 4th grade, I told a teacher who told my mom. My mother, since, has never confronted or told anyone in her family about the abuse, nor had she told my dad for over 26 years. I recently told him after going through extensive trauma therapy.

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Working / Worked

I went through the WIIT (Women's Institute for Incorporation Therapy) program at The Pavillion in Hollywood, FL. I did the outpatient program, since I lived close.

Forgiveness Considering

Not sure if I can forgive him. I know that I can never forgive my mother for never confronting him properly or telling my father.

Music Working / Worked

Music has always been my escape when it comes to personal soul therapy. Music has the ability to alter my mood quicker than anything.

Talking Working / Worked

I had to confront my mother about it as well as tell the rest of my immediate family (brother and father) about it and my abuser's wife. That was probably the toughest part.

Open Healthy Sex

Still trying to get the handle on all this 'healthy sex life' stuff. My past sex life has been somewhat nonexistant and now that I have a steady boyfriend I am trying to find my 'niche' when it comes to making love.

Treatments

Patience Too Soon to Tell

Dude, don't ask. I'm not a very patient person when it comes to ANYTHING.

Open Sexual Abuse

I was sexually abused by a family member from approximately age 5 to age 11. My mother was the only one who knew for years and I never thought it affected me until I had 2 nervous and psychotic breakdowns at approximately age 21.

Treatments

Art Working / Worked

Always works. I write more than anything, also scrapbook and do some digital artwork.

Group Therapy Working / Worked

Attended the WIIT (Women's Institute for Incorporation Therapy) outpatient program at the Pavillion Hospital in Hollywood, FL. Did wonders for me.

Music Working / Worked

Music has been the only constant that has gotten me through so much in my life.. especially this.

Talking Working / Worked

Talking about it as I got older made me realize that it has affected my life, as much as I wanted to say it hadn't. I think the fact that my mother didn't do much about it, hid it from her family and my father and still doesn't really want to accept that it happened is the part that has affected me the most.

Open Family & Friends of Bipolar

My father is bipolar as well as myself, but I think that living with his mood swings is almost worse than actually living with the disorder itself.

Open War in Iraq

I think that a majority of America, according to every report I have seen, is against the President and this war for obvious reasons. We have been lied to from day one about what this war is about and, to this DAY, I STILL don't know why we are there. It's a travesty to everything America stands for and is the cause of deaths of our brave soldiers who are supposed to fight for AMERICA, NOT a foreign nation that does not want us there.

Open Self-Injury

I don't do it often, however I do find the need to self-injure when times get at their darkest. I started out doing minor, superficial cuts and the last 2 times I have done it it has been more severe, needing stitches. However, it is, thankfully, not an everyday urge anymore, although I do struggle with it when I hit rock bottom depression spells.

Treatments

Group Therapy Working / Worked

I went to a special group therapy program called WIIT (Women's Institute for Incorporation Therapy) at the Pavillion in Hollywood, FL... worked wonders for the trauma I have faced in my past. Also helped to know that others had the same problem(s) I did.

Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked

Went to the WIIT program at the Pavillion in Hollywood, FL. WONDERFUL program.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Not near as helpful as Outpatient group therapy. Also, found that I had to switch therapists as they eventually became uneffective.

Squeezing Ice Somewhat Helpful

The sting helps, but the pain isn't severe enough for the worst of urges.

Talking Working / Worked

Group therapy, talking with my friends who understand online when I'm in crisis, is probably the best therapy or deterrent from SI that I have found.

Tattoos Considering

I am in the process of figuring out what I want done and waiting anxiously for the day when I can get mine done.