Once a cheater always a cheater!
This is probably one of the hardets journals ive had to write since the girls died. …
"When a catapillar dies, a butterfly is born" I am here to support and help others, who have lost their loved ones as well. I was diagnosed with PTSD shortly after stopping to help at a fatal accident on I-75, in tampa, on in Feb 11, 2007 at 3:55 PM. There were five people traveling in a mercedes, three were ejected, one survived. A 17 year old mother and her 18 month old baby- died in my arms as I tried to save them. I am only 23. The guilt, and anger I carry on a daily basis are almost too much to bear. I have since become very close with the family-and often feel guilt for not being able to do more to save their girls. I know in my heart that their injuries were just too extensive. I am so angry-- angry with god, and have lost a sense of who I am. I am trying to deal with the flashbacks, nightmears, sounds and smells that trigger those memories-- but hoping that someone here has something they can offer, as well as something I can offer them. http://crystalandcadence-torres.last-memories.com/
"When a catapillar dies, a butterfly is born" I am here to support and help others, who have lost their loved ones as well. I was diagnosed with PTSD shortly after stopping to help at a fatal accident on I-75, in tampa, on in Feb 11, 2007 at 3:55 PM. There were five people traveling in a mercedes, three were ejected, one survived. A 17 year old mother and her 18 month old baby- died in my arms as I tried to save them. I am only 23. The guilt, and anger I carry on a daily basis are almost too much
I am currently working on my BSN in education / social work. I do yoga regularly, go to church, enjoy reading and writing poety, and looking for good books, painting pottery, lay out on the beach, go to comedy shows, draw, have martini's with the girls..have wild crazy nights on the town, spend the night ordering in and watching movies, and especially spend money-- which I rarely have.
I am currently working on my BSN in education / social work. I do yoga regularly, go to church, enjoy
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nurse23 commented on Toshigirl’s journal entry Job 11:13pm
Ive worked in many hospitals for the past 6 years. First of all.. what is your status? Are you pt, ft,…
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We'll be here for each other. I miss them every holiday, and look at the empty place where they would…
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I just relized your husband died, just a few days after the girls. 2/11/07, 5 days . Know that ill be…
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Thanks Sharron. Im doing a lot better. I guess it just hurt too much ... and the relization that i couldnt…
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im ok now.. and you know milla i never foget you.. I overdosed on 35 klonipin and a half bottle of ibeprohen…
This is probably one of the hardets journals ive had to write since the girls died. …
thank you. I cant believe it will be 2 years in Feb. and Im not looking forward the holidays again. I heard christmas music today in the grocery store, i just wanted to bolt out of there. The tatoo sounds really nice. Big hugs, Sharon
I read your story about taking the pills. I am so sorry your struggling. I hope your feeling better. You have been there for so many people here on DS and I just want you to know I am here for you. Big Hug, Sharon
Hi, Just letting you know I care and deeply miss our chats. May God give you the peace and comfort in your time of pain. Hang in there and know I am here whenever you need me!
hi hope you are well thinking of you.
Hope you are doing good. Just recently came back to DS. See your still hard at work.
This year marks the second annivarsy of the most horrific day of my life. I stopped while driving, on the side of the interestate as a first responder, to help in a bad accident. The mother 17 and baby 18 months were ejected and killed. The other 3 passengers survived with serious injuries, which I helped to triage, with no supplies.
I have worked night shift in the medical field for about 4 1/2 years, but suffer from PTSD after wittnessing a fatal accident involving a teen and her baby, about a year ago. The Flashbacks and nightmears, make me not want to sleep, or wake me up in the middle of the night, with rapid pulse, and tremors.
I am attending school for nursing and am able to apply for the nursing program in july of 08. After wittnessing a fatal accident i feel i may be having a change of heart in career direction, and am considering a change of direction. I am interested in a lot of different areas of health care, counseling, social work, and community outreach-- but would like people with unique jobs to approach me with new ideas, and encourage me to seek other opportunites out there.
I am not a mom YET. I am a 23 year old nursing student, who loves working with children, but my true passion in life is working in truama . I joined this group b/c I stopped at a fatal accient last year in 2007, where three of five passengers were ejeced in a rollover. One was an 18 month old baby, who WAS in her carseat. Her mother died in my arms as I tried to save her. I miss them both and am working hard to try and educated as many people as possible about car seat saftey!
Ive worked with adolecents as well as on labor and delievery for sometime as a health care worker. So Im here to offer my support.
Im 23, and b pos, just signed up to be a donor and was recently accepted and registered. Waiting for someone to need me..
Hmmmmmm.. Where do I start. I wont blame our president..but Ive been through 6 jobs this year. After experiencing a tragic accident, and getting Post traumatic Stress Disorder, I have had a difficult time keeping a job, working in the medial field as many of my jobs force me to face life/death situations, and makes it almost impossible to keep a job in my field. I have been working hard to find other jobs in different fields, but my depressions affects me daily.
23, normal to oily skin. Still breakout prone in t-zone . Have to use a regular regiment.