springawakening's Journal

First of all, I'd like to apologize for my abrupt leave. You see, DS is an odd place to me. In some ways, it helps me, in other ways, it worsens me. There is so much support through the groups, yet there are also so many triggers. I had to get away, because I was in such a bad place, that I really thought i'd do "it." I just had to get away and have sometime to think.

So let's see, things are in some ways better, some ways about the same...not really worse, though. Which is good, I suppose. As far as the money troubles, they are still there, but not as prominent. My grandparents are able to help out again, and speaking of them, my grandfather had his surgery to remove his stomach, and although he is having to learn to adapt, the cancer is gone. My stepdad has gotten a job, not a real job but just some construction work from a friend, so that's a bit of money that's tax-free! And seeing as school has ended, I'm not costing them as much. And although college costs will be high, I earned a large sum of scholarships and received money from people who happen to care about me, so I should be all set for my first year.

I've moved away from NC and have relocated to where my family lives. It's closer to my university. I sure miss my old friends and church family though, especially my boyfriend. It will be okay. God knows what He's doing.

My days are boring and routine. My mom's in CA helping my grandma with my grandpa, and my stepdad and sister work during the day. I, however, sit home and watch my little brother, who is actually currently screaming about not wanting to clean up his mess. I swear, this child makes the house a pig sty.

Even though my mom's so far away, she still manages to make me cry, and her and my stepdad are fighting like cats and dogs. And they are being so childish and planting me right in the middle. It's whatever. I've handled worse stress than this from my bipolar mother.

I'm trying not to stress too much about college. I still need to get some supplies, but it will be okay. I'm sure things will work out. And in a few days, I will be going to New Orleans on a church retreat with my old group. Should be fun. And these church things always make me feel better, so that's a plus too!

Love you all and peace out!