Update
September 29, 2009 2:25pm
Well I've resisted the urge several times in the last few months. I've prevented myself from ouching even when I felt it was the only thing I …
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springawakening 
12:19pm, October 15, 2009
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About Me
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Thursday
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springawakening gave babajules a hug 1:02am
hey honey, hope to hear from you soon. i'm getting a tad bit worried, but i'm sure everything's fine.…
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springawakening gave lilnemo a hug 1:01am
hey hon. haven't heard from you. how's julian? i'm getting worried....…
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springawakening gave jimOUalum a hug 12:57am
am i?…
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springawakening and coolkidrthomas are now friends 12:40am
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springawakening and effy10177 are now friends 12:40am
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I wish
August 8, 2009 11:44am
I wish I hadn't ruined everything.
I wish I hadn't been so emotional.
I wish I hadn't told her anything.
I wish I could have told her …
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I've returned
July 15, 2009 2:58pm
First of all, I'd like to apologize for my abrupt leave. You see, DS is an odd place to me. In some ways, it helps me, in other ways, it worsens …
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So here's my goodbye
May 20, 2009 10:37pm
Time has run out, for me. Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe. It's so hard, lost in the world confusion. And I need …
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screw it
May 18, 2009 10:14pm
if you couldn't already figure it out, i'm once again back at 0....and don't give a d@mn
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Have you told your doctor about being so sad?
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well, thats wat a laptop with internet access is for. :)
Ray of Sunshine
Good luck!
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thanx for the proud game it rell cheered me up.
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Support Groups
Close Depression - Teen
I've been depressed ever since I could remember. I used to have eating disorder problems and issues with self-injury, but I've overcome the first and I'm working on the second. Sometimes I just want to be perfect and please everyone, but that's impossible. My faith is helping me overcome this obstacle.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- It can be a really good distractor from my pain
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Some music helps, others don't. Christian music works best, but sad and slow music makes it worse.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- This positive thinking is making me a happier, better person. It can be hard to think positive, but all I have to do is pray.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- The friends who support me are marvelous and always there to listen! My baby brother lightens my mood, too.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I have a select group of people who I can turn to, and this venting almost always helps.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I write my feelings on here, which helps so much because you are all so wonderful. Also, I write poetry and stories, which are sometimes helpful, but other times make me feel worse.
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendWhen I was 12, my best friend died. Last year, two of my friends committed suicide. In the same year, my friend lost two friends, and my boyfriend lost one. Now more recently, another friend died in a car accident. Some years back, my grandmother died, and I feel like it was my fault. And my grandfather will be leaving soon. It just seems like everyone is dying, and it's not fair.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- It feels good to get my emotions out, but sometimes I feel like a blubbering baby.
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
- It's nice to let it all go, but I feel crazy when I do this.
- Helping Others Working / Worked
- This is the most amazing feeling in the world.
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- I'm always reminded of them, especially the one I lost when I was 12, but I know I have to keep living.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Music let's me know that I'm not alone.
- Poetry Somewhat Helpful
- Getting things out like this is wonderful, but sometimes I think too many sad thoughts when doing so.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- God works in mysterious ways, and I believe He took them all for a reason.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- I understand that others go through similar things and, once again, I'm not alone.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- I know they want me to be happy, but sometimes I forget. And while I think good thoughts about them, sometimes I'm consumed by their deaths.
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- This group is extremely beneficial to me.
Open Children Of Divorced Parents
My parents split when I was younger. Now both are remarried, my dad's a jerk, and my brother disowned me.
Open Financial Challenges
Both my mother and my stepfather are unemployed, my father won't support me, and I'm trying to make do with the little money I have.
Treatments
- Budgeting Somewhat Helpful
- Ive only been buying the things I need, for the most part.
Open Bereavement - Teens
I've lost a few friends, one being a best friend, and it's hard to move on, you know? I've also lost a grandmother, too.
Treatments
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Life goes on, but it's hard to push the sad thoughts aside.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I feel comfort from certain songs.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- They will always be in my thoughts, but sometimes, the thoughts are overwhelmingly depressing.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- My close friends help me so much, but I don't have that many people to talk to.
Open Bipolar Disorder - Teen
The moods can be so difficult to deal with. Happy, sad, happy, sad. And my mom's bipolar too, so I get a taste of my own medicine.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- It sometimes helps me to listen to upbeat music when I'm in a depressive state.
Open Hypochondria
I'm not sure if it's all in my head or not...And I'm so tired of stressing over illnesses that don't even exist.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I used to think I was just a perfectionist, but my issues are far more intense than that. My OCD gives me anxiety and depression.
Open Sexual Abuse
When I was younger, my cousin molested me...on numerous occasions. It's seriously affected my relationships with members of the opposite sex, but I'm really going to make this one work.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- When I'm feeling blue, this therapeutic activity sometimes helps.
- Leave Working / Worked
- My parents found out, my mom freaked, and now I rarely see him...Unless my dad brings me around when he is, but that's rare.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I can get lost in the music and forget.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I've mentioned it to people before if I knew they could relate. Also, my boyfriend knows, but he doesn't know how to help me. Just him being there helps a lot, though.
Open Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
I lost a friend to Burkitt's lymphoma in 2002. My great-aunt is dying from ovarian cancer, and my grandfather is dying from stomach cancer. And now another friend of mine is dealing with recurrent ALL.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI can't remember a time without depression. I'm always crying or trying to keep things inside. I take everything that goes wrong out on myself in the form of SI.
Treatments
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- If I just sit there and think, I can push the bad thoughts away. But sometimes, I'm so out of control that I skip this step.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- God and the church help me, but I still fall into a slump sometimes
- Psychotherapy Considering
- I've had counseling before that was an utter failure, so I'm a bit anxious about going back.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- My bf supports me, but he's depressed too so I hate bringing him down. My family just thinks i'm whacked out, and they make things worse rather than better.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- works sometimes, but my writings are so...depressing
Open Self-Injury
I started cutting when I was 9 years old, and I didn't even know what I was doing. Since then, I've been off and on, and I need help staying off.
Treatments
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- I just started using this, and while it helps during the day, as soon as I can get a razor, I'm done. Also, it's starting to leave some ugly marks and welts.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I have one person to talk to, but I don't always want to talk to him about it because I don't want to make him worse.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)I always thought I was just crazy...
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Bisexuality
I don't know. I don't even know. Maybe I'm just bicurious. Ugh. I'm so confused.
Open College Stress
New to college. Want support when necessary.
