KBiz's Journal

I'm writing to tell you that my husband is losing his battle with rectal cancer.  I have been home with him since May 14th when he underwent surgery for a colostomy.  This day happened to be our daughters graduation day from nursing school.  First one done with college.  We have four daughters and 2 grandchildren.  He didn't want to miss the graduation, but we didn't want him to wait for the surgery and continue to suffer the pain in his rectal area.  His doctor told him that his liver was beginning to fail and that they weren't sure if it was a good idea to go ahead with surgery.  We decided to go ahead and I'm glad we did.  This is giving him more comfort in his last days.  No more running to the bathroom!  Colon and rectal cancer are not very friendly from an standpoint of being able to enjoy your life due to always having to be close to home or a toilet to avoid accidents.  He has steadily grown worse over the last few weeks.  He is jaundiced, sleepy, weak, now using a catheter and in a hospital bed at home.  Last week he told me of a wish he had to walk all of his girls down the aise since he won't make it to their weddings.  We brought him to church and he received the sacrament of the sick and then walked all of the girls down the aisle.  This was his last outing, but he is determined to get out tomorrow night to see his baby's graduation from highschool.  I hope he makes it and I think he will.  I will miss you Glen and I love you very much.  You have given so much of yourself to your family and we love you.  Please wait for us in heaven and welcome us when it is our time to be with you again.  Kris