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Challice 
My adolesent years were quite "frustrating". Hormones didn't kick in untill I was about 15 or 16. Late bloomer, from what I hear now adays. Young ladies now are starting their periods at 9 and 10. Oh my!!!!! My mother kept telling me it didn't matter if I had one. I could still go out and make money (for her). She several times tried to set me up with some old man for her benefit. I would make sure when I met these people that they wouldn't take me across the street!!!!!I had my first boyfriend in 7th grade. His name was Bill. He would come down and see me when my sister's boyfriend would come see her since he lived right next door. We never had sex. Not that I wouldn't have since I was in LOVE with this guy, but we never went "that" far". I dated him alll the way up to high school. In the middle of the 9th grade one morning outside of homeroom (where he would always wait for me) he handed me a not. I read the note and my Heart Broke. He wanted his ring back. He had been seeing someone else for a long time and wanted her and not me. She was "doing it" with him since I wouldn't/handn't. Crushed to the bone. Totaly crushed. I cried and cried for weeks on end. How could he have done this to me? I did everything "but that" for him and truley loved him. I to this day don't think I ever really got over this guy. Several months later a guy paid attention to me. Not that I thought the same of him, but it was "someone". He asked me to the junior prom. I was excited. I went home and for several weeks made my prom dress on my grandmother's treddall sewing machine. Pumping away with my foot, I sewed every stich in it. I did a great job and it turned out beautiful. I felt like a Cinderella in it. I also had gotten a pair of pair of high heels. My first pair!!!!! Not that 2 inch pumps are really high, they were to me. The night of the prom came and I dressed up and put on my "stockings" and heels along with my beautiful dress. Mother said I looked beautiful. I came down stairs and waited his arrival, and waited and waited. He Never showed up. I was a bet he had made with some guys. A Joke the hole time. They just wanted to see if I would go with him if he asked me. Ha Ha Ha you got stood up., Ha Ha Ha. It became the joke of the whole school. Every isle I walked to go toclass I would get laughed at, or a sarcisitic remark would be made. Everybody was laughing at me. How stupid was I. I feel for it all!!!!!!!!! Hook line and sinker. Nobody wanted me. I couldn't find love anywhere. Not a home, not anywhere.
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What a sad story. We all have things in life we go through and some how we have to grow strong from it. It makes us better people in the end. I bet that was so hard for you in school to have to go through that. I hope you can find love and be good to yourself. It all comes from with in.
kweeks2006
CHALLICE:
HERE GOES. I TOO WAS THE LAUGH OF HIGH SCHOOL. NOT POPULAR, THE ONLY FRIENDS I HAD WHERE ALSO "NERDS." I WAS IN THE HIGH SCHOOL BAND AND IN 1964 WE WENT TO THE WORLD'S FAIR IN NEW YORK CITY. I WAS HOPING THAT I WOULD BE ASSIGNED TO ROOM WITH SOME OF THE GUYS THAT WERE IN THE "IN CROWD." NOPE, DID NOT HAPPEN. I ENDED UP WITH THE "OUT CROWD." WE LEFT OUR SMALL TOWN ON A TRAIN TO WASHINGTON, D.C. WE LEFT ABOUT 3 AM. OF COURST I WAS SITTING WITH THE NERDS WHEN ONE OF THE "IN CROWD" CAME BACK TO ME AND SAID MELANIE, WHO WAS A MAJORATE AND THE MOST POPULAR GIRL IN HER CLASS, WANTED ME TO COME SIT WITH HER BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT I WAS VERY GOOD LOOKING AND HAD A TIGHT BUTT. OF COURSE I WENT AND SAT WITH HER. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT WE BEGAN A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP. I WAS NOW PART OF THE "IN CROWD BECAUSE I WAS GOOD LOOKING. MEL AND I DID EVERY SEXUALLY EXCEPT HAVE SEX. HER MOTHER TOLD HER TO MAKE HIM WORK FOR EVERYTHING I GOT. THIS WENT OWN UNTIL MY SENIOR YEAR IN HIGH SCHOOL. ONE NIGHT AT HER HOUSE EVERYBODY WAS GONE EXCEPT HER MOTHER. WHEN WE WERE HEAVILY PETTING HER MOTHER LEFT US ALONE. WE FINNALLY ENDED UP ONE THE FLOOR NAKED TO THE BONE AND I WAS ON TOP OF HER. I KEPT ASKING HER IF SHE WANTED ME TO GO ALL THE WAY. SHE NEVER SAID ANYTHING. I WAS A BACKSLIDDEN CHRISTIAN AND I KNEW HAVE INTERCOURSE WAS NOT RIGHT. ANY WAY I DID NOT GO ALL THE WAY. AFTER A FEW MINUTES OF PETTING I GOT UP AND GOT DRESSED. SHE ALSO GOT UP AND GOT DRESSED. WE DID NOT SAY MUCH TOO EACH OTHER AFTER THAT. I LEFT AND WENT HOME. WE DATED FOR A FEW MORE WEEKS AND THEN ANOTHER POPULAR BOY IN HIGH SCHOOL CALLED HER AND ASKED OUT TO GO TO A MOVIE. SHE SAID YES. THIS KILLED ME AND CRIED LIKE A BABY RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. I STAYED UNTIL THE OTHER GUY CAME AND I WALKED HER TO THE CAR. SHE CALLED ME THE NEXT DAY AND DUMPED ME FOR THE OTHER GUY WHO HAPPENED TO BE THE QUARTERBACK THE FOOTBALL TEAM. BOOM! JUST LIKE THAT I WAS NO LONGER IN THE IN CROWD. IN FACT MELANIE HAD TOLD MOST OF GIRLS IN HER CLASS WHAT A GOOD PETTER I WAS AND ALL THAT WE DID TOGETHER. I WOULD START ASKING POPULAR GIRLS OUT AND KNOWING WHAT MEL AND I DID THEY WERE INSULTED I HAD ASKED AND SAID NO. SO I STARTED ASKING GIRLS WHO I KNEW IN THE 10TH GRADE TO GO OUT WITH ME. FROM THAT POINT ON I NEW HAD A PROBLEM GETTING A DATE BECAUSE OF MY TIGHT BUTT. I REALLY TO THIS DAY HAVE NOT GOTTEN OVER HER. NOW THE ODD PART. MY NEPHEW WHO WAS ABOUT 10 YEARS YOUNGER THAT ME STARTED DATING AND EVENTUALL MARRIED MELANIE'S SISTER WHO WAS ABOUT 8 YEARS YOUNGER THAN HER. EVERYTIME MY WIFE AND 2 KIDS CAME HOME TO VISIT MY MOTHER I WOULD ALWAYS SEE MEL'S SISTER. TWO YEARS AGO MY MOTHER DIED. WE CAME HOME (WEST VIRGINIA) FOR THE FUNERAL. GUESS WHO SHOWED UP. YEP, IT WAS MELANIE. SHE WAS REALLY COMING ON TO ME AND THEN I INTRODUCED MY WIFE AND THAN SHE GOT UP AND WENT TO TALK TO MY OLDER BROTHER. I NOTICED THE CONVERSATION WAS NOT ABOUT THE DEATH OF MY MOTHER AND I GOT UP AND WALKED OVER TO WHERE THEY WERE TALKING AND I JOKINGLY TOLD MEL TO LEAVE MY BROTHER ALONE AND QUIT TRYING TO HIT ON HIM. SHE SAID THAT SHE WAS MARRIED BUT SAID SHE HAD BEEN TRYING TO HIT MY BOTHER WHO ALSO WAS MARRIED FOR THE LAST 20 YEARS. MY BROTHER SAID YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING AND SHE REPLIED NO AND THAT SHE WAS SERIOUS TO GET HIM IN BED WITH HER. MY BROTHER WHO A DEACON IN THE CHURCH SAID THAT HE NEVER REALIZED IT AND THOUGHT SHE WAS NOTHING BUT A GOOD FRIEND. HE SAW HER A LOT SINCE HIS SON HAD MARRIED MEL'S SISTER. WHAT A WHORE. I NOW HAVE GOTTEN OVER HER REALLIZING WHAT SHE REALLY WAS. THE TOWN'S WHORE. PEOPLE ARE EVIL UNLESS THEY HAVE BEEN BORN AGAIN AND KNOW JESUS AS THEIR PERSONAL SAVIOUR. BUT CHRISTIANS CAN DO THE SAME SINS AS THOSE WHO ARE NOT BORN AGAIN. BUT WHEN WE SIN WE ARE CONVICTED BY GOD'S HOLY SPIRIT AND WILL ASK GOD'S FORGIVENESS ANDBY HIS WONDERFULL GRACE FORGIVES. CHRISTIANS DO NOT WANT TO SIN BUT WE ARE NO PERFECT AND WE DO SIN. ENOUGH BEING PREACHIE. I HOPE THIS HELPS.
rogerledwards
Thanks, I don't feel alone. The guy I dated in high school lives about 25 miles from me. I would LOVE to dress up, put that little black dress on, high heels and the hair and makeup. Go stand in front of him and say, this is what you could have had!!!!!! Oh Well!!!!! and walk away. I think I would feel better!!!! Ha Ha Ha. I can still look sexy when I do the dress up. In general I wear my jeans and I do put my make up on. But the birds and animals I spend my time with indoors and out couldn't care less what I look like. I turn heads sometimes to this day. Maybe it's the long blond hair. Or my walk. Many people comment on my walk, They say I strut and have a runway walk. Well, if I do it's not because I try. it's just the way I walk. By the way, do you still have that tight butt?
Challice
challice, i actually feel physical pain when i read this - kids can be so cruel and they dont realise that this behaviour creates the future and the quality of lives we will lead, i am so sorry you had to go though this, i can tbeleive there was no -one i.e. a teacher or someone who paid attention to the neglect you were going through or the bullying you were a victim off, you are a very beautiful womens who i beleive will get everything you want and deserve as you are putting the work in to make this happen for yourself x
soultosoul