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Bill08 
5:55pm, November 6, 2009
My heart is just coming apart this morning. I awake in the middle of the night frequently with tears and cries of pain out to the Lord. Why o Lord? Why o Lord can't she be back with us? Why when we pray don't we see healing like in the bible? Immediate healing o Lord God. I didn't know a person could be so sad. I have the Lord in my life and heart. I know of his love and his touch. I know of his guiding hands. I know he has brought us through many storms. Still, there is a deafing silence. I look out at the world and see sadness and happiness. When I look at the happy things of life I think to myself, why Lord. Why can't we be happy? Why is there so much sadness surrounding us? Did I cause this through my own sinful heart? No, get behind me satin. God loves us!! He has plans for this storm that we are going through. As the time goes by it is so hard to see that it will be OK. That all will be good in the end. It is hard to see where we might be at the end of this. My heart is filled with such a great sadness. The days all just go by. Each day is hard; I try to keep a positive attitude. Whenever the thought comes to your mind please pray for me. Our world changed all in one night. I ask the Lord to please let my wife come back to us. Give us another chance. You cannot turn the clock back but you can always look forward. Love your wife, Love your kids, Love your Mom and Dad, and Love your brothers and sisters. Show them today, you only get one chance. Tomorrow might not be here. There are many people out there in this world just like me. There whole world changed in just one night. My heart is broken. I can't explain to you the pain I feel. It runs through my body like a sharp pain. I know there are many people praying for Donna. As I pour out my heart and my feelings today the lord is there in the middle of the pain. I know all my words are just jumbled together and nothing might make sense to you. I only put down what I believe the Holy Spirit is telling me to say. It is good to put it down on paper. The Lord must have seen the pain and directed me to my keyboard. The tears have stopped and I thank the Lord for that. Pray for healing with perseverance and passion for Donna. Thank you for being with us."Lord God, please just let us see your healing today, bring an end to this storm" in Jesus' name Amen". Thank you Jesus!!! In his hands only,
Bill
