emmmm14's Journal

i was looking around face book the other night and found a person in oregon that looke dlike my sister patti..i have lost touch wiht all my family for a lot of reasons..

well i sent  afriend request not sure if it wwas her and this moring i got an email and it was..

havent really talked to her yet..

so anyway i am happy.little worried from all the problems that had been ther ewiht my family for yrs.none the less happy..

so i wrote her a mssg and briefly told her about my life..

i hope she doesnt think bad of me.i always worry that..

she wrote that my she had seen my om and dad in july so i know my dad didn tdie..i thoguht had from a stroke in  2006.so that make sme happy.

i never tlaked to my family becsue i was taken away by the state when i was 7 from them..

abuse my father beat my mother  as long as i can remember..then things jsut feel apart lost touch when i was 18..

welli just am happy to know they are all well and doign good.

it is my sister kathy i worry about thoguh..

she never got me..always said jsut do this etc.

never got the pain i wen through..

maybe i am just settignmyself up for hurt but i wont know till i try..

thats i can do.i would so love to have family again.i have wanted that my whole life..

will they except the mess i made of my life?

to many worry's..

update on husband now he is sorry agin..

i dont know..really.the part of me that loves him is saying try .the part sick of hurt is saying dont..

good news i think then same old confusion..