emmmm14's Journal

well it sbeen pretty bad the past couple weeks..ive hit the botom then pulle dmyself back up..

ok so im not all th eway up..just gettign by..

he was at his worst then ok he loves me agin.havent realy seen him though so?i dont know.

my kids are wiht me today:)

have to bring them home soon pain in that one.

ill miss them.

i hat ethis anxiety i know id do way mor ethan i am righ tnow if i could jsut get a handle on it.

some poele may not understnad this but it is liek fihgting someithng you dotn see.

its so hard and latley i dont want to fight.im fighting to much as it is..

so other htan that thats today and an brief update onthings..its all the same not much changes.what do you do when you dont reall have a way to change soem things..

its like this strange familiar pattern tht is so depressing..

ive learned that im better off shutting my nouth than saying how i feel.even though it goes against everytihgn i am..i do say it then everyithgn falls apart but i do anyhow..

ugh well thats it for now..