Update on yoga progress
May 1, 2009 12:05pm
I've practiced at home, independently, half an hour 2x per week for three weeks now. Found some poses that are good for …
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Close Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused by my father and then my step-father. My earliest memory of being sexually abused was when I was four years old and my last memory when I was sixteen years old. I am 38 years old now and trying to understand the reasons for some bad judgment and poor choices I have made. By NO means do I want to excuse my behaviors due to my being a survivor, but I DO want to see clearly what role it DOES play.
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- Art Working / Worked
- Independent of counseling I have always used art (poetry, drawing, painting, collage) to help work through my emotions. I find it to be one of the most valuable tools in my "toolbox".
- Talking Working / Worked
- Over the years I have found by talking that there are so many others who have had this unfortunate experience. It helps sometimes to just have people you CAN talk to without worrying about how they will judge you.
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
- Was advised to use this tool 15 years ago, during my first round of counseling. I have held onto the workbook and returned from time to time when I felt the need. In recent years I have found myself trying to move away from "sexual abuse" as the MAIN issue in my life for fear of being defined by it.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIn the past five years, I have been on and off of medication for depression. Looking back I'd say I have been struggling with depression for most of the 38 years I have been living.
Treatments
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Was off and on this one prescribed by my family physician for a few years. Not for me due to decrease in libido/sexual functioning.
- Massage Working / Worked
- Once per month I take advantage of the fact that a massage therapist comes to my workplace to do 15 minute chair massages and when I can afford to I go every three or four months for a 60 minute deep tissue massage. Massage can be an emotionally cathartic experience and also helps to remove toxins from your system and treat stress. NO MORE MASSAGES...no money for it.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- I've only dabbled with meditation as I find it difficult to sit still for more than five minutes purely meditating. However, I have found Yoga to work very well for acheiving a cleared state of mind. For at least a few hours after a good yoga class I feel purely and truely happy. Practicing for 30 min. to 1 hour at least twice per week for the last month.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Oh I TRY. But, this is a challenge for me. I am working against some deeply ingrained patterns and habits of thinking. Need to really focus on this.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Maybe I'll give this another try.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Was on this for a short time period following a two week hospitilization due to a break-down featuring loss of touch with reality. Came off this one rather quickly after stabilization. Don't really remember the side effects experienced. This was a year ago.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I've been isolating for some time now and still dealing with a lot of shame about my actions so I can't really talk honestly with my closest friends and family. Not entirely.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Have been on this one for probably six months. Side effects are few to none. Seems to do well in helping me balance, in the sense that I am not crying over the little things anymore, sometimes it is even hard to cry over the big things. Does NOT help with my stress reactions though...am considering asking for an anxiety specific med. Not on this one anymore for now. Docs put me on Abilify 2 mg.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Have always done this to some extent although in recent years I tend to write and then destroy what I have written for fear of it being read by others.
Open High Blood Pressure
Hospitalized at 36 w/palpitations and BP at "crisis" levels. No one believed it could be High Blood Pressure. I was lucky, I HAD symptoms, which had been occuring for a year prior to hospitilization. 38 now, BP under control with meds. Had to try three other meds. before finding the right one.
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- Atacand Working / Worked
- This was the one!!! Over a year now w/ controlled bp. But have had to increase dosage since starting.
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Limit caffeine intake, salt etc....you all know the drill :-)
- Diltiazem Not Working
- This one did not work for me. Tired all the time, bp not controlled well.
Open Panic Attacks
Had these, maybe? I was hospitalized with palpitations and crisis level high blood pressure two years ago at 36. Family physician suspected anxiety and panic attack for the year prior to hospital stay when I described my symptoms. Now that BP is controlled with meds have not experienced any palpitations in over a year.
Open Anxiety
I was hospitalized at 36 experiencing palpitations and crisis level elevation in blood pressure. I'd experienced symptoms for a year prior. Doctor thought stress, anxiety, possible panic attacks. BP now under control with Atacand. My stress responses seem stronger than average and are always emotionally and behaviorally obvious to others. I experience a great deal of social anxiety that I believe interferes with forming new relationships. A definite draw-back in the workplace.
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- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Use this from time to time when I recognize that tight-chested feeling.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Stopped taking this for depression due to sexual side effects. Take Wellbutrin now.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Yoga works better than "straight" meditation for me at this time.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- This is an ongoing challenge for me. I have some deeply ingrained thought patterns to overcome.
- Valium Too Soon to Tell
- Doctor gave me this to try two years ago but I would not take it. Negative memories of my mother taking this med. and concerns about dependency.
Open Bipolar Disorder
Hospitalized for second time recently. For depression. Docs took me off Wellbutrin and put me on this. Talked about ECT but I was not ready for that step. Just joining this group b/c the depression group doesn't list Abilify as a medication choice.
Treatments
- Abilify Too Soon to Tell
- 2mg. Not so many side effects. Was some nausea, but now I take with food and seems okay.
