breakthrough
September 20, 2008 9:25am
I have done the sad and the angry and everything in between - I've decided it's time to join the living.
God knows I loved Carlos …
Progress
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ndbound2020
11:23am, September 20, 2008
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About Me
ndbound2020
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About Me
I lost my husband on May 3, 2008 - he died of a cocaine overdose, and I was completely unaware that he was using. I am learning to love life again - I spent 9 years in an abusive situation and I'm never going back again.
I lost my husband on May 3, 2008 - he died of a cocaine overdose, and I was completely unaware that he was using. I am learning to love life again - I spent 9 years in an abusive situation and I'm never going back again.
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Interests
gardening, cooking, wine, cats, old movies, country music, line dancing
gardening, cooking, wine, cats, old movies, country music, line dancing
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and now the ANGER!!
September 5, 2008 1:03pm
I haven't written anything here for two weeks - I'm so horribly caught up in this new emotion that I don't know what to do. I went …
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two steps back...
August 27, 2008 2:46pm
I thought I was doing so well ... that I was moving forward through this pain.
I can't seem to focus on anything since last week. …
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Allison Krauss - "Ghost in This House"
August 26, 2008 5:01pm
I don't pick up the mailI don't pick up the phoneI don't answer the doorI'd just as soon be aloneI don't keep this place upI just …
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Prayer
Here's to a better 2009! luv, Deb
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Happy Holidays and wishing you peace throughout the coming New Year. With Love Cindy
Shout Out
haven't heard from you in a while... I hope you are doing well.. hugs.. your way
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i hope your monday was good and tuesday be great
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hey girl: i hope you had a great weekend and pray these holidays are very special to you even though our spouses will not be with us. i love your pics and i feel your pain. i will be thinking of you and be strong. hugs bob
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I just lost my best friend and the love of my life. My constant companion of 9 years, husband of 4 years passed away in my arms on May 3, 2008. He would have been 39 years old on May 18th. We were all pretty sure it was a heart attack, but I just found out that it was a lethal mixture of alcohol and cocaine that killed him. His mother has somehow decided I'm to blame. I want my life back.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I allow myself to have a good cry a couple times a week - it's very cathartic. I feel exhausted afterwards, but feel amazingly at peace when I'm done.
- Grief Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- I've started going to a bereavement group twice a month - it is a "safe" place to let it all go - I feel very good going there.
- Pets Working / Worked
- It's been a real comfort to have the two cats to come home to - my white kitty is grieving in triple, though - first my daughter left, then Carlos died, then when Carlos' daughter moved out, she took her kitten with her - that was Skyy's "baby".
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I've been seeing a very good woman who gives me "projects" to work on each time I see her. Just having ONE goal to set for myself each week seems to be helping immensely.
