laurinthorla

Close Diets & Weight Maintenance

I lost my mother when I was only 11 years old, and began trying to fill the hole with food. I have always found myself to be a very beautiful person, I just want to be healthier and much slimmer. I currently wear a 14/16 shirt, and a 20 pant. I've always been a lot "thicker" at my bottom, and slimmer at the waist. Don't get me wrong though, my chest is nothing close to the small side (44DD). I just want people that will help me, and motivate me, rather than my skinny friends who can't really understand and think it's okay for me to have that burger or those french fries.I've recently started loosing some weight. I started taking Adipex about two or three months ago, and it really helps. The only thing is, I know my weight lose would quicken and be much better if I worked out regularly. I really enjoy working out, when I can actually get myself up and out to do it! It's just that I don't really feel that motivation, and that's the number one thing I'm looking for. I want to look good, and more importantly FEEL good about myself whenever I go out with all my friends. I'm hoping that this will be my inspiration!

Close Sexual Abuse

All my life, I was told the man in my life was my father. Years later, after the murder of my mother, I found out he was my step father. From the time I was 5 years old, until shortly after my mother's death, I was being molested/raped by him. Feelings of guilt, disgust, and embarassment clogged my brain. More than anything though, I was confused. I was a young child and didn't know that what my step father was doing was not okay. Years later, I told someone, and I am ready to share my story!

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

Accepting that it was not your fault is the best treatment of all. You realize that it wasnt your fault and that youre not guilty or gross because of it and all you can do is smile. Relief is an immediate effect of acceptance.

Music Working / Worked

Putting my pain into music often helped me vent before I became comfortable sharing my story with other people. Though I am now healed, music is still a huge part of my life, and I will continue with it forever.

Talking Working / Worked

Talking about what happened was nothing compared to actually TELLING someone. Make sure you tell someone you know will take your story to the heart, and do whatever they can for you. Soon after you tell someone, you begin to wonder, "Did I tell the right person" and things of that sort. Telling anyone was what helped you. It doesn't matter who.