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reneemaldonado 
3:42pm, November 4, 2009
So its been sometime since I journaled. I had the baby almost 4 weeks ago! I can't believe how much time has gone by already. I'm so in love with my kids. Its bittersweet having Mia though, makes me see how much I am missing out on not having Isabella here with me. Everyone seems to think that my sadness should be gone now that I have another daughter but the truth is, its even harder because it makes me miss her even more. I find myself crying alot for Isabella, missing her and wishing she were here with me. Mia and Isabella look so much alike.. they even weighted EXACTLY the same, 6 lbs 13 ounces, 19 inches long. How crazy is that? I wish I had all my kids together. Went to the cemetary today and took Bella here fall flowers and some pumpkins for Halloween. Gosh I miss her. I am truly greatful for my Mia though. Mia is so so precious. I'm so in love with her. She's such a good baby and just so adorable I kiss and hug her all the time and I think I get on her nerves at times. I'm up with her at night and dont' even mind getting up a hundred times if I have to. This has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I think I have the baby blues on top of everything else..I'll journal more later, gotta go, baby is crying. I hope all you ladies here are doing well, keep your heads up and know you are all in my prayers. Love you girls!
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I am so glad to hear from you, I have been waiting to hear how things are going. I am happy to know that you and the baby seem to be doing good. Hopfully those dang baby blues leave soon. I am not looking forward to that part I think it is going to make my emotions crazy over the loss of Kiley and hopfully the gain of our new little one. I can only think of how hard it is going to be and how hard it is on all the new moms when they have their new babies at home, it is going to be so bitter sweet. I am scard to feel those emotions come back so strong. I find myself now in disbelief that my sweet Kiley is gone. I hope everything continues to go great, enjoy your beautiful little bundal of joy and please post some pictures when you have a chance. I know you must be crazy busy but I know we are all looking forward to seeing her beautiful face. Take care, hugs, Brandy
Crushed4ever
I'm glad Mia's doing so well but I feel for you & the pain and ache of not having Bella there with you too. I can only imagine, it must be so hard. I think Cynthia started a group for moms who've had a baby after stillbirth, I'm not sure what it's called but I am sure it's on this site somewhere. Hugs - Ann
Ann888
Congrads!!!! I am so happy Mia is here and doing well. I can't wait to see pics.
Am1110
It is funny how other people think that having another baby makes everthing right as rain. I have had that statement made to me. I think that other people think that there is a fix for your loss. The truth is that there will always be a void for the child who is missing.
I know you look at Mia in amazement each day. We have a true appreciation for our children that others take for granted.
So happy she is here!!!
SweetgirlMaris
Isabella ia by your side always .. welcome Mia
jillsmax