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reneemaldonado 
3:42pm, November 4, 2009
Went to a baby shower today for the first time since Isabella's. It was tough but I did it. Not sure how I feel about it all. Part of me wishes I was having my own shower before this baby girl arrives, but I know its my fault for no one throwing me one, I told everyone I didnt want one until after he baby is here. I should have celebrated her just the same as I did with Isabella and had one before to celebrate her. I feel like such an awful mother now that Im not having one. Felt kinda sad too cuz all the little girls that were born around when Isabella was born were there too, that was hard. I'm going to take a nap now, feeling kinda sad and missing Isabella.
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I know how you feel about not wanting but wishing you could let yourself have a shower. I didn't have one, I had a celebration at the hospital. I can tell you that it feels great to sing happy birthday with a living baby in your arms.I hope that gives you something to look forward to. I bought a pretty welcome baby cake. You're baby girl will love just being with her mommy. I'm sorry that you are missing Isabella so badly right now. I hope she gives you tight little angel hugs while you sleep. Hugs and God Bless, Cynthia
crwtom
I didn't have a shower for Felicity because Esther died at her shower so I totally understand not having one, and I love the after birth party.
Tamberly
I'm sorry sound very difficult, but it also sounds like you did a great thing to attend. I agree the after birth party sounds wonderful. I'll be thinking and praying for you in the next few weeks - HUGS!
EML20WKS
You were able to celebrate Isabella with a shower. You have that brief moment of complete happiness without thought of loss. When you lost her you gained a new persepective on the "joys" of pregnancy and birth that has changed you forever.
We had Marin's shower after she was born. I feel that it was the very best thing for me to do and would do it again. Maris was gone before her shower date and then my stupid sister in law threw one on the same date for my other sister in law. My heart hurts on August 16 because what was supposed to be and never was.
SweetgirlMaris