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I am so glad to hear from you, I have been waiting to hear how things are going. I am happy to know that you and the baby seem to be doing good. Hopfully those dang baby blues leave soon. I am not looking forward to that part I think it is going to make my emotions crazy over the loss of Kiley and hopfully the gain of our new little one. I can only think of how hard it is going to be and how hard it is on all the new moms when they have their new babies at home, it is going to be so bitter sweet. I am scard to feel those emotions come back so strong. I find myself now in disbelief that my sweet Kiley is gone. I hope everything continues to go great, enjoy your beautiful little bundal of joy and please post some pictures when you have a chance. I know you must be crazy busy but I know we are all looking forward to seeing her beautiful face. Take care, hugs, Brandy

I'm glad Mia's doing so well but I feel for you & the pain and ache of not having Bella there with you too. I can only imagine, it must be so hard. I think Cynthia started a group for moms who've had a baby after stillbirth, I'm not sure what it's called but I am sure it's on this site somewhere. Hugs - Ann

Congrads!!!! I am so happy Mia is here and doing well. I can't wait to see pics.

It is funny how other people think that having another baby makes everthing right as rain. I have had that statement made to me. I think that other people think that there is a fix for your loss. The truth is that there will always be a void for the child who is missing.
I know you look at Mia in amazement each day. We have a true appreciation for our children that others take for granted.
So happy she is here!!!

Isabella ia by your side always .. welcome Mia

I know how you feel about not wanting but wishing you could let yourself have a shower. I didn't have one, I had a celebration at the hospital. I can tell you that it feels great to sing happy birthday with a living baby in your arms.I hope that gives you something to look forward to. I bought a pretty welcome baby cake. You're baby girl will love just being with her mommy. I'm sorry that you are missing Isabella so badly right now. I hope she gives you tight little angel hugs while you sleep. Hugs and God Bless, Cynthia

I didn't have a shower for Felicity because Esther died at her shower so I totally understand not having one, and I love the after birth party.

I'm sorry sound very difficult, but it also sounds like you did a great thing to attend. I agree the after birth party sounds wonderful. I'll be thinking and praying for you in the next few weeks - HUGS!

You were able to celebrate Isabella with a shower. You have that brief moment of complete happiness without thought of loss. When you lost her you gained a new persepective on the "joys" of pregnancy and birth that has changed you forever.
We had Marin's shower after she was born. I feel that it was the very best thing for me to do and would do it again. Maris was gone before her shower date and then my stupid sister in law threw one on the same date for my other sister in law. My heart hurts on August 16 because what was supposed to be and never was.

I am sorry you are so stressed, but your husband is right, you need to calm down (easier said than done!!!). Try focusing on this new life, enjoy every kick, meditate and breathe. I will be praying for you and your family. I hope the last 6 weeks fly by for you. ((Hugs)) Amy

I know it's hard, but really try and relax and enjoy those kicks. Sorry you are sick, I know that sucks right now too. This is a rough time, we are all due around the same time and it's very stressful getting though these last few weeks, but we can do it. I will keep you in my prayers! Lots of hugs, Sharon

I know how difficult the end is, it was the very same way for me with Ben. Absolute hell, actually. I wish there was something I could say to ease your mind, but I know that is impossible. Just try to focus as much as you can on how beautiful it is that at this very moment there is a sweet little life growing and thriving inside of you. I'm here anytime you need to talk or cry or vent or freakout or whatever, I promise you I've been there and I completely get it. Take care.

I know how hard this is! As my pregnancy progresses, I become more obsessed and terrified, and I have to wait until freakin December! Ugh. Anyways, try to stay as sane as possible, but i understand your fears completely. hopefully october will speed up and get here so you can have that baby girl in your arms...

praying for this next month to fly by and for you to have your precious girl safly in your arms

At the end I was so scared I made myself sick. I can't tell you not to be because it's impossible. I think as obsessive as it seems to others doing the kickcounts, making her move, and checking the heartbeat is what kept me sane. i hope it passes by quickly for you. I will be keeping you both in my prayers. Hang in there.God Bless, Cynthia

I am right behind you just a few weeks .. same feeling as you .. i think we all have it .. what week are they doing c section ?