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Although I have the goal of walking three times per week I found walking with my daughter last night to be stressful rather than relaxing. I was out of breath and have decided that I will walk alone, less fast, until I loose a little weight and can do better. Modification is key.
Not to be too hard on myself for my shortcomings. That is my new goal. Am going off my Effexor XR with help of Prozac. Am really scared because the pdoc told me to just stop taking the Effexor when he put me on Lamictal. That was a disaster and I had to go back on Effexor. What an awful drug. Anyway he has me on 37.5 every other day and I run out Monday. Pray for me that I don't get the awful side effects.
I am fianlly beginning to feel normal again (whatever that is). The Lamictal seems to be working and so far no side effects (3 weeks into treatment). I still find that I want to interrupt conversations and am thinking ahead of the conversation to be able to put my 2 cents worth in. Now that I am aware of my behavior I can work on controlling it. Haven't been depressed lately which is a true relief. I did get teary yesterday when my husband (of 34 years on Saturday) and my song came on the radio. They were tears of joy and thankfulness that I have him in my life. I wouldn't have survived this ordeal without his and my daughter's support. I hope I can begin to make up to them all the pain I have caused over the years. Til next time..........
Today is the second day of my return to work. I was nervous to see people that I haven't seen in awhile when I came back yesterday but all went well. I was tired last night but a good tired. I noticed that I had to remind myself to slow down and not move at high speed. I asked my therapist at my appointment yesterday how to tell if I'm heading for mania or if it is just my personality. She said it doesn't really matter, what matters is that I check in with myself and those around me to be mindful of how I'm acting. This still confuses me but I guess I will get the hang of it. Being bipolar I have always either been way up or way down so way up is the "norm" for me when I feel good.
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Get back to work
Progress 100%
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