RyansPrincess's Journal

Soooo .. my stress has not gone down any.  This past week had been awful.  We were supposed to go to a Halloween party on Friday night and I had really been looking forward to it.  When Friday night came around,  I was so exhausted, physically and emotionally/mentally, that I just couldn't do it.  Hubby was wonderful and told me that he wanted me to be there with him but would understand if I didn't go.  I wanted to,  I really did,  I just couldn't do it.  So he got dressed up and went to the party.  I grabbed a book and curled up on the couch with one of my cats.  We didnt have any trick or treaters other than the 1 small group before hubby left.  I bought all this candy too .. lol .. figures.  If I hadn't bought any candy they all would have shown up.  Oh well.  So I fall asleep on the couch while reading.  Wake up a couple of hours later and get up to go to bed and stop at the potty first.  What do I find?  My ever rotten, 5 days LATE, curse!  I am to tired to react at this point.  While I had bought candy I also had bought a PG test.  Should have known better,  I really should have.  Didn't get to use it,  it's still in the original wrapper sitting on my table.  I should return it. 

Did I mention that we are trying to buy a house??  Have a I also mentioned the thought of it makes my anxiety level sky rocket??  I have the utmost faith in my hubby and he assures me everything will work out and it usually does.  But in the meantime, it's a very stressful time.  I just want to crawl into bed with my cats, pull the covers up over my head and come out when it's all over .. lol .. but I can't.  So with hubby's help I will get through this and it will all be ok.  We'll be homeowners and then we can focus on getting pregnant.