RyansPrincess's Journal

Earlier in the year I decided to seek help from a therapist.  I went for a few weeks but she just was not doing it for me.  She was listening but not really listening to me.  Basically, it wasn't a good fit.  I was in a really bad spot in my life and needed someone to talk to but I needed more.  So now here I am .. in almost the same boat.  Not in a good spot in my life mentally or emotionally.  All the stress is really taking a toll.  I have never stressed well.  I either make myself really sick or I make myself really depressed.  Lately, the headaches that I have been able to control in the past with over the counter meds, have been getting worse and more frequent.  I went to an urgent care place and they prescribed fiorcet (sp?) for me and that worked well.  The Dr told me that I needed to follow up with my primary care physician.  I didnt have one but had always meant to find one I could rely on.  I think I have found her.  I broke down and made a Dr appt today.  I need help,  help dealing with these headaches and help dealing with the stress and anxiety attacks and always feeling anxious.  So I made this appt and went in this afternoon.  I really liked her and I felt totally comfortable with her.  She actually listened and didn't try to rush me.  She prescribed me xanax to take when needed and scheduled a follow up appointment in 3 weeks.  She made me promise to call and make an appt if anything changed or if I got worse.  So we'll see how that goes. 

On another note .. DH and I were talking tonight and we decided in January to go back to our RE and try a few more rounds of IUI.  It makes the most sense to us right now.  Neither one of us can wrap our heads around IVF right now .. especially me.  Puts me in knots thinking about it.  Originally I wasnt going to go back to my RE or the lab cuz we are having issues.  But its with the insurance, not the Dr or lab, that we are having issues with.  We know and trust our RE and they really are good.  We are just hoping they can help us finally have a baby.  Well .. thats my ramble for now.