Progress
10 %
Goal End Date is Dec 5, 08 353 days ago.
Current Weight (Lbs)
0
egsanders 
9:38pm, January 2, 2009
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About Me
egsanders
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About Me
I'll try to keep this all pertinent. I was raised by 2 alcoholic parents, who divorced when I was 17. No abuse from either of them. I have 1 sister, 3 yrs older than I who lives 2 states away. We really don't communicate at all. I became a single mom at age 29, my little boy is almost 9 now and is wonderful. I work full time, own our home (though I know it's too much for me to keep up and pay for)His dad lives in the next town and sees him every other week. I became involved with a man 7 yrs older than I in 2002, one of those "swept me off my feet" situations. I began to see the signs of his abusive nature about 3 months into the relationship. We have split up 3 times, each time for several months, because the affects of his moods, anger, and lack of compassion and caring became overwhelming to me. Once to the point that I very nearly stopped eating, lost 30 some pounds. Well, I took him back in November after weeks of hours and hours of daily phone conversations. He began to see a counselor, who put him on Lexapro, and put into writing a list of "I promise to never again...." Here we are, the begining of June and he has systematically broken every last one. I feel like such a fool to have ever believed him. The last straw for me was when he turned the news of my Mom's breast cancer diagnosis into another reason to be ANGRY WITH ME, and to scream and yell and berate. I cry daily, feel useless and worse than that, hopeless. I feel like all of my dreams are gone, never to be regained. I need help finding the strength to leave him, stay away, and to be whole and strong for my Mom who needs me now like never before.
I'll try to keep this all pertinent. I was raised by 2 alcoholic parents, who divorced when I was 17. No abuse from either of them. I have 1 sister, 3 yrs older than I who lives 2 states away. We really don't communicate at all. I became a single mom at age 29, my little boy is almost 9 now and is wonderful. I work full time, own our home (though I know it's too much for me to keep up and pay for)His dad lives in the next town and sees him every other week. I became involved with a man 7 yrs older
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Interests
Volunteer work, singing, dancing, laughing till I cry, art, crafts, antiques, my little boys smile, reading, laughing....oh yeah, I already said that...that's ok I'll laugh TWICE!
Volunteer work, singing, dancing, laughing till I cry, art, crafts, antiques, my little boys smile, reading,
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Support Groups
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
I have spent the last 6 1/2 yrs with a man who is verbally and emotionally abusive to me and everyone in his life. I have reached the point where i am ready to leave, but am still gathering the courage and the strength. I bleong to the DS group - Physical and Verbal Abuse Survivors.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- While providing a creative outlet, I find that it only helps to "take my mind off" while Im in the process of creation.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Leave Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Close Single Parenting
I am a single mom to one 9 yr old "wonder boy". I am curretnly trying to exit a 6 1/2 yr relationship with a man who has 2 very ill mannered, out of control teenage boys.
Open Sexual Abuse
egsanders hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Depression
egsanders hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breakups & Divorce
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