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flybynight 
8:23pm, May 21, 2009
I have been thinking the last few days about things .How I worked hard and trained when I could to become who I am.To share what a wonderful compassionate woman I fought so much to become.I had finally reached a point where I could finally look at myself and say I did this and I can do more,so much more.Even through all the fear I made it No I am not perfect no one is .We all have wants and needs that get neglected when you have no love in your life .I told myself that it was not so much my fault .I always thought I could not be loved .I was learning that it wasn't all me who was wrong in what everyone thinks including myself .I was in the hospital a few weeks ago because I could not cope with the abuse I was taking at home and sadly on here .I have not had time to get stronger and I don't want to be strong anymore.I am tired.I cannot see the light .
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with u, here 4 u. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
SarJaz31
THERE WILL BE LIGHT JUST BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF. DON'T LOOK AT LIFE AS IF YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE STRONG ALL THE TIME. NONE OF US CAN DO THIS WITH OR WITHOUT BI POLAR. WE JUST HAVE TO LEARN NEW WAYS TO NAVIGATE THE PITFALLS OF LIFE. WE DO HAVE TO LEARN TO LOVE WHO WE ARE NOW. FORGET ABOUT TRYING TO BE WHO YOU WERE. LIFE CAHNGES AND SO MUST WE. WE EITHER ADAPT OR WE DIE. THAT IS THE LAW OF NATURE. GIVE YOURSELF TIME TO HEAL AND BE COMFORTABLE WITH THE NEW YOU. BELIEVE ME THERE IS STILL A GREAT LIFE AFTER AND WITH BI POLAR. IT IS JUST A LITTLE DIFFERENT FROM THE ONE WE HAD BEFORE BUT THAT DOES NOT DIMINISH ITS VALUE.
I HOPE YOU ARE NO LONGER IN THE ABUSIVE SITUATION. NO HUMAN OR ANIMAL NEEDS TO PUT UP WITH THAT!!! THAT ALONE WOULD CAUSE YOU TO THINK LESS OF YOURSELF AS THAT IS WHAT ABUSERS WANT THE ABUSED TO THINK!!!
TRY TO DO THIS ONE MOMENT AT A TIME. TAKE SOME TIME EVERYDAY TO COLLECT YOUR THOUGHTS AND TAKE A TALLY OF YOUR GOOD POINTS. I AM SURE THERE ARE MANY. THEY JUST GET BURIED UNDER A LOT OF GARBAGE.
BE WELL, MY NEW FRIEND. DEBBIE
SlipperySlope
vanda there is light just keep taking one step at a timexx i love you so muchxx keep holding onxx
xXeraynXx
I am sorry you are in such a dark place right now... I know how painful and overwhelming it can be. I hope you find the strength to hang on until the sun rises and fills your world with light again.
Sending warm smiles and comforting hugs... take care... xxx
GTK
here for u.. xoxo
HUGS
acatlover24
We are surrounding you with OUR love. You have always been lovely. You have always been a jewel in the crown of creation. Createssor's final and best work was woman, and you are good, because you were pronounced good by Createssor. The ground you stand upon is holy, because you and yourselves are holy. Dear Sisters, you cannot see the beautiful stars because you have closed your eyes. You are tired because believing lies told to you, and the lies you have told yourselves, have stolen your birthright, your divine energy. You live. So you have a choice. Believe those life sapping lies, or switch them off by opening your eyes to your own truth. You DO know the Truth, and Your Truth will Set You free. WE will believe for you until you will believe for yourselves. And take all the energy you need from us. We can get more if we are not carrrying enough. Take your tired wings to rest, and then flybynight again!
BobCJ