kjc431's Journal

Been a while since I wrote.  I've been feeling down lately, not sure why. For the longest time I was feeling good and pretty much back to normal but then all of a sudden I just started feeling depressed again and really irritated at the slightest thing. I talked to my Psycho doc and decided to up my dose of Effexor to 112 every other day and take 75 on the days between, I've also started taking .25 mg of the klonopin daily.  It's so odd because I was finding it really hard to think. Like I was thinking through mud and any slight mental challenge just drained me.  I just don't know why I'm like this. I look at myself and know how lucky I am. I absolutely have nothing to be depressed about. I sometimes wonder if I'm losing my mind, like maybe I have a brain tumor or something.

Wendy and I took the 3 days off before the 4th holiday. Goodyear gave us the 3rd off as a local holiday. We'd booked a condo in Port Clinton Oh and I was kinda dreading going away. Then on the 1st we got news my stepmother passed away. She was 81 and had been in the nursing home. She'd been going down hill for the last several years, just kind of lost her will to live. It wasn't really a shock. She's where she wanted to be now.  Anyhow we thought we were going to have to postpone our trip, or cancel altogether but as it worked out we had the calling hours today and her funeral is tomorrow. 

Port Clinton and Put in Bay was an awesome time. We all had a really good time. I rode a waverunner and had the best time doing that with my son and going fishing with him. It tickled me to see his expression when we caught some sheephead.  i even found out that I can have a glass or two of wine and it won't affect my INR. I'm so glad I have my INR machine. It's so much peace of mind to be able to check whenever I want.

Calling hours today were long and tiring. Lots of people showed up and I think I shook over a thousand peoples hand.  Half of them I didn't even know.  My cousin and Aunt showed up and in talking with them I found out I'm totally German!!  LOL  All my life I was told I'm German, Irish, and Pennsylvannia Dutch, but my cousin traced the Conners back and found out there isn't an ounce of Irish in us!!  LOL  Conner is a German name.

Well that's all for now!!!