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Shamrock593 
I can't wait for halloween! I am going to a party at my uncle's golf course on friday and possibly a karaoke night on saturday with my Aunty Marla and friend Shawna. I haven't really looked forward to halloween for a couple of years now and am eager to break that dry spell.
I just wish I knew how to deal with my friend Jordan-he has been a bit of jerk since I said how I was sorry for turning him down years ago when he asked me out in Grade Nine and I really liked somebody else who turned out to be a real jerk. Last year nI think I was a little jealous when he finally had a girlfriend cause I realized what I had missed and tld him so (I am still confused to how I am feeling right now about him especially cause I usually don't get jealous-well I'm not a very jealous person anyways). I tried to try to explain myself to him but it's not easy and he always finds some excuse to leave or whatever so I'm kinda pissed. Anyways what furthyer complicates stuff is that now I have feelings for his best friend TJ (who I get along pretty great with naturally) which kinda complicates things cause I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings and I don't want them to break up or anything.
And while more than anything I want to continue to be friends with both of them (we have been friends since sometime in Junior High) I am finding my feelings kinda confusing. I did befriend TJ on facebook one day when I was talking to him in the library I just knew I wanted that (partly b/c I suffer from loneliness) so I gave him my facebook name and added him as a friend later just incase he couldn't find me. I have mentioned my facebook account to Jordan too before (I was complaining that I couldn't upload the facebook site on my cell phone one day) but for some reason I didn't give him the precise info he might have needed. I don't know-maybe it was some unconsious anger against him at the time cause I was frustrated at him for not giving me a chance to really speak to him.
Maybe I'm not interested in him in that way anymore (if that's what it was) -and maybe the hurt I'm feeling is more the friend type.
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I am also feelin ashamed of tellin Jordan about my abuse when I did (cause maybe it was just too much for him to deal with at the time)-when I went through I phase in my recovery (about Mid March to Mid July of 2008) where I felt like telling everybody about the abuse that occurred to me.
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Sorry here's my results for my weigh-in earlier this morning.
Last week's weight: 165.6 lbs
Goal: 164.0 lbs
Today: 166.0 lbs
Goal for Next Week: 165.0 lbs
Bust: 40.5 cm
Waist: 36.0 cm
Hips: 40.5 cm
Shamrock593
Good Morning! I hope you have a great day! Just keep the friendships and if more develops with out forcing it than great! Good friends are hard to find!
I liked you last picutres you put up - the snowmen were super!
The party sounds like a good time....I am hoping for some great pictures! Have tons of fun!
JoyceMarilyn