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Life is hard at the moment, life has not gone to planned, I felt last week, that I may have been making progress, I do think I have made progress, I think its the old cliche of taking each day as it comes. My main priority is to get a job, I need the money and the fact to get out of the house. At the same time I have my counselling which is helping but its hard I have malke one I am seeing, then I will change to my female one next year. I feel I have friends on here, I really do, it helps so much, but I haver to take a step back, in the eagerness to find friends and for people to like me, i want to get close to people, I will always be there for people as much as I can.
I know this is a fight that ultimately that I have to keep fighting, I really want to, I am going to try CBT for myself, see how that works, setting small goals that I can achieve, my goal is to not self destruct when I am having a bad time, I have great friends on here, I am wracked in self doubt, that even i think about about what im think and its like I think about everything. Its like if i think about everything then something may make sense. I have to stick to being positive, I really have to, look forward, not be paranoid. around friends, work on that. I want to be a good person and feel that I am going to turn into something i dont want to. I have to be strong, work hard, I think thats imperative, that whatever I do now, I work hard on it, to have a great work ethos, I am going to work on myself. I need to do this for myself.
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I read you journal just after taking my afternoon meds. It's time to sleep them off, but when I get on again I would like to help you with your plans if you like. Sometimes two heads are better than one even though I think you are very intelligent and sweet.
Today is better for me.
Flower
flowerofthevalley
With you all the way sweetie.....we all are! Love & huggies to ya Shazzy. xxxxxxxxxx
westielover
This is great Shaz. I support you with what you need to do and you always have a friend in me. You are a good friend. You deserve happiness and I do know how you feel, I suffer with the same type of stuff, taking care of myself, worrying, feeling bad but needing not to feel bad. I have been suffering with these very same problems for years. I am hoping to get better too. I am hoping you will. You are a strong person. You can do it. I believe in you and I am your friend. Hugs. Taking care of yourself can be really hard, it might be a hard thing that some people with anxiety have to do, I just want to let you know that I support you and I understand. I go through this too and that is why I understand and support you.
fragileteacup
Hey this is definately the right approach Shaz, I sent you a link that I think will help you deal with the down side. Your friend Simon
SimonM
hey i think your on to something by taking each day as it comes, ive started writing myself little lists of goals i need to do each day even if its something small and try not to make the list to big, then give yourself a reward for doing it, but hey what works for me might not work for you, i guess its easy to spiral into self doubt but you are great person and you help alot of folk on here big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxx
firespinner
Hi Shaz - sounds like you doing fine. Keep on Keeping on. You may find these links useful too:
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
http://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/
Good wishes and Hugs
Breathes
I WILL REMEMBER THAT I AM DESPERATE FOR APPROVAL AND MATES IT CAN BE 1 DAY AT A TIME OR I HOUR A TIME AND THESE SMALL BUT PRECIOUS STEPS ARE GOOD FOR YA .YOUR A DIAMOND SHAZ ,,,REALLY A DIAMOND XX sARAXX
solosolow
I'm so glad that you're doing what you need to do to feel better, you should be really proud of yourself :)
Person913
sounds great!
BeautifulFairy
I too have to set myself small goals Shaz sometimes it is just to put one load of washing on in the day or do some washing up. For me it is that small because of my medication. On the good days I can then do more but on the bad days I can at least achieve the one thing I set out to do. It is also trying to remember that it is not what other people aim at it's what you aim at, it's your goal and I know you can do it. Start small and work up love Sharon
angelglory
CBT is great. I have the primer book and I have found this type of therapy extremely helpful! Good luck.
OJewel