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Dear Journal,

     I am writing because I am very sad tonight.  I met this new guy and we were supposed to go meet to hve breakfast so I went to his house, we got naked and started cuddling and kissing and it was great hes an amazing guy. He is from Switzerland and we met a few weeks back.  Today when we were getting into it and about to have sex I told him I was positive. He stopped and paused and told me ho much he really likes me however needs to process it.  Anyways I walked away to get a glass of water thinking what have I done? Then I came back cuddled and kissed more then he proceeds to tell me he needs to think about this and I asked him where my tidbit of "honesty" leaves us? He told me he doesnt know he needs to think about it. I like him soooooooooo much. This guy approached me after I had given up on finding a decent guy here. I like him so much, he starte talking about how he doesnt know about his "sexual freedom" i guess that means he is sad he cannot have bareback sex with me.....What do I do? I like him and hes the only decent guy out here?  

Hello Everyone,

    I hope all of you are doing well, I know I am.  I have been working a lot and still struggling with finances and paying off my debt, sending $400-$500 to creditors per payday.  I have two credit cards and trying to keep both of them in good standing to help my credit score.  I went into the office on friday as requested by mysupervisor, because of my recent intestinal problems I have had alot of pain and "other" problems so I had been not as productive at work although had still been working my scheduled hours and overtime when was asked.  They asked me until further notice to work in the office everyday starting Monday, they told me if my productivity goes up and I am more pleasant and happy while working then I can resume working at home, not a good thing however its not the worse.  Today I work from 4:00 A.M. until 12:30 P.M. :(  I want to start school and resume my degree in Psychology by January so I have been studying Algebra so I can make sure I do really well on my College Assessment test.  That way when I get into school I can focus on my Psychology Degree and not have to take any un necessary classes because of not passing the Assessment test.  I will be calling the college on Monday or Tuesday to see if I can set up the assessment test and speak with a counselor on what I have to do exactly regarding finishing my Associates in Psychology.  Well lets see I have covered finances, work, and school, guess now it is time to discuss the love life:  Well I do not have a boyfriend however have not exactly been looking the only guy I am interested in romantically lives in Orlando and is relocating to Atlanta.  So that makes things a little more difficult however I am supposed to be seeing him next month hopefully.  Well anyways I will be getting back to work now and will update later :)

Is the Doctor ever going to give me good news?