djbds1's Journal

Life is an amazing thing...an amazing gift.

Pain is an amazing thing...an amazing curse.

Receiving gifts on Christmas morning is an amazing thing.

Receiving coal on Christmas morning is an amazing punishment.

Pain is to the gift of life as Coal is to the surprise of Christmas morning.

I would like to think that I accomplished many positive feats over my lifetime. I would love to believe that I was a positive role model for my friends, family, and acquintances. I would be satisfied knowing that my loved ones look at me and smile for the way I treat them.

What I actually believe..I have been a negative influence on the people around me. I have wronged my friends, family, and loved ones for some unknown reasons. I am being punished with pain for all the mental anguish I brought upon my parents growing up.

I just lost a good friend...not to death...to death of a relationship. A friend of 5 years...a person who said they would always be there and always have love in their heart for me. They could not even tell me WHY they never wished to speak to me again...pure apathy fills the hearts of everyone around us...it is damaging and pathetic.

When it is time to just move on with your life...don't forget to throw out your emotional "baggage"...it will follow you and hurt you in the long run. If anyone ever complains to you or tells you they have been hurt by you, however, they are unable to give you reasons why!!!...ASSUME they do not have the will power it takes to maintain a friendship...they are the weak ones. We have to wake up with debilitating pain everyday...we are the strong ones.

Have confidence in what you do and who you are...NOBODY can take those things away from you!!!