deel45's Journal

Wow! It has been awhile since I have wrote anything! I was doing really good and was back to work for 30 hrs a week and not much pain to speak of. My ex had moved out last month and everything was doing really well. Then the bottom dropped out of my world once again. I had to go to the er due to severe pain in my lower stomech and pelvic area. They took cat scans etc and found out that I had a ruptured hurnia in my pelvic area, which is very rare to have one there in that area. Also, I have to have my bladder redone as it had dropped way down. Anyway, I had emergency surgery on Thursday to fix the hurnia etc and just got home from the hospital late last night. I have to be out of work AGAIN for another 4-6 weeks without income once again. I dont know how much more of this i can take. I just get back to work almost full time, my fibro was doing very well, and then bam, once again I am out of work. I have about 25 staples in my stomech and I am so damned sore and in pain. I cant drive for at least 2 weeks or more. I am going absolutely nuts!!!

All I want to do right now is sit and cry my eyes out, but that would accomplish nothing.  I am really depressed at the moment. Anyway, this is what has been going on in my life lately. Will try to stay around on here as much as I can due to the fact that I cant do anything else for awhile, plus I miss all my friends here. Take care and hope everyone is feeling good. I am gonna go take a pain pill and take a nap.