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tazgore 
6:25am Friday
i feel like i am spireling down this pit of depression. I know it was not my fault. I know it was not my fault. I know it was not my fault. I can say it a million times or untile i'm blue in the face. i still dont belive it!!! why didnt i run? being lost for a few hours would have been better than what actually happened. why didnt i run? i just stayed and did as i was told. He didnt even have to hit me. Just get me lost and make me afraid of a bunch of pigs, and i did as i was told. Even after the trust was broken i still trusted that he would show me the way home. why would i do that? why? I feel stupid. easily controlled. shamfull. numb
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because you were 6 keith, you were a child, you did what most children do, nothing, he betrayed you, you are beautiful and innocent and It is never never never your fault. You are not stupid, you are were 6, that's why it was easy to control you, it's easy for any adult to control a 6 year old, He hurt you when you were vunerable, there is no shame on you, it is all on him. Sorry you feel so bad, sorry your feeling numb PLease PLease Please Take good care of yourself, Please nurture yourself, And give yourslef a Big Hug from me. We gain our strength by what we overcome. Damn we're strong =) Love and Peace
AZVegan
you might have forgotten (or blocked out) what your son was like at 6. it might be a good idea to be around children that age so that you can see what they are like: trusting, gullible, naive, INNOCENT, childlike. they're not aware of choices, hidden agendas or psychological intimidation. their world is simple: A or B, find home or stay lost. you were 6, Taz. WE have to stop blaming our inner children for acting AGE APPROPRIATELY. ((BIG HUGS)) & lots of love!!
iamjoey