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Guess in a way - thought this too was well over but Dr Fard is the sceptical one, feeling I need more sessions with him for him to know my situation better and I must admit - re-doing the pre-revolutionary years from one angle opened up more paths and lines and cleared more - all in the end clear, but some more rays shine. However it's not over and nor are the pills. I'm tired and I'm well - well much better anyway. I'd rather make an effort to get back into a normal rythm of life and struggle towards making my days as regular and active as I possibly can - and then go to the doctor's.
I have an appointment with Dr Guilani tomorrow anyway. And his in a few weeks after I return. I want to book Doha tomorrow also. I want to learn to life me up into a happier space and I'm already doing it. ASW has been a portal to activites and friends and socialising how I enjoy and with a selection of people I feel I really suit. It's been magic.
I've already found a whole host of friends over the last few weeks over which time I've been to Shomal also. i never saw or spoke to my friend Maryam in the end. It seems she's passed away already. I saw Gina and her family, Nina, Mahasti - who I hadn't thought about but we were friends, Rebecca, Mahboud - my goodness it never goes how you think life ; I've chatted to Yassi and indirectly to Andy who's becoming a daddy.
I've made some new friends and having strengthened the foundations with others and seen some oldies like Babak.
Luca and I have been opening up and talking and I've been learning to be silent and read and do my body things much better and less in shock recently.
My soul and I are working better also.
So there's been a steady pace of movement and change at the end of the year - a kind of gift to myself for all the hard work right the way through the year - which has been long and heavy.
But hey, each month is also as positive as this month in it's own way - I just haven't been keeping records of these last parts so much. I have a hafty book to read.
Anyhow here's was the recent.
