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LexiNicole 
12:47pm, October 31, 2009
well its been 4 weeks since my last suicide attempt and hospitalization. I hadnt
planned to journal about it this time, but what the hell. I dont feel suicidal
anymore the last one scared me in a way, another close one.
I still want to know what happens when you dies tho, is it better then
the tough times here or what?. I always swear i will never try it again,
I think this time i mean it tho, my doctor said one more time and he will
take away all my meds and admit me to a long time facility.
i have to think of how this affects my family, i know it scares the hell out
of them. I am grateful for every day im not suicidal tho, i really am.
Any comments or advice are welcome. Love and Hugs Lexi
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Talk to us here when you get like that sweetie. I know how you feel though as I have been there quite a few times. Luckily I am to scared to put in a real death notice.. Life sucks, I know.. Lets just be happy for the few good days that we have.. Im with you my friend and I love you.. Y'Vonne
meandthebeast
Lexi. I never knew about that..I am so sorry that you were feeling so bad,,,I know the despair tends to take over and swallow any sense that may be lurknig, I am so glad that you feel more positive...please, please hang on to whatever love you can feel if it ever happens again,,,the ones left behind are wrecked by a suicide and I mean wrecked,,and if there is something after life then we will all find out soon enough anyway so hang around and have some fun..love you Lexi, you are a good soul and deserve the best of life..never ever give up..xxxxx
cosyrosy
I am glad you are here to tell that story.It must be hard to go through that and not want to tell anyone. I am sorry you went through this and are back to share you experience.
ZAZAS
I didn't know any of that honey. I am so sorry you were feeling so low. I hope that you stay safe and take it one day at a time.
BooBooKitty
I didnt know any of this either hun. You just take care and im always around if you need to talk about anything. Thats what friends are for. Love ya loadsx
milly17
Thank you all so much for your kind words. Ilove each of you!! That was my last attempt , and my final attempt, I have learned alot during that time and never plan to repeat it. again tysm for your kind words Love Lexi
LexiNicole