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Love you Sistah & I am so sorry for all of your pain.

oh lexi, i had no idea you was feeling this way hun. you know i understand ur pain from amount of my posts u have commented on last few months. im here if u need me. please let ur friends here support you. please take care of yourself and respect yourself. - easyer said than done i know but you are a wunderful member here on ds. hope u feel better soon. hugs. x

Lexi...I am truly sorry for the pain you are in..I get it, I understand.. I know that the drinking makes the pain go away hun..but is only while you are drunk. I think the pain is worse when we sober up, thus creating the vicious circle. I am not lecturing, I am concerned. Please be well hun..Know that people care, ok? Hugs xxxx

you have always been here to encourage me. now i am sending love and support to you. hun, i feel your pain. there are so many here that care and love you.. you always lift others up so much in their times of despair. your words here sound a lot like the way i feel. like being on a collision course and knowing it, and not knowing how to stop... my thoughts are with you... we have to find a better way to cope. somehow i pray we can and that we will. just know you are much loved here.. xxx sheila

Just letting you know, I wish the best for you. If you would like to chat, I am here. I understand having pain that you can;t exlplain and doing anything to outrun it.

I have been where you are, drinking to kill the pain and I can tell you it is not worth it. You however are worth it, worth the fight!! Please don't give up!! You have been so amazingly stron and have supported so many, now it is your turn to lean on all of us and let us support you.

Lexi, I am so sorry life is hard and your dealing with all this pain that you don't know what to do with. So many of us understand how that is, how much you want it to go away or run from it and it never does. I can offer a shoulder of support if you ever want or need a listener. Please take care of yourself....Love and Peace to surround you always!

When you stop drinking and become healthy. This sounds harsh now, but that is what it took for me, so I'm just offering the idea to you. Love you. You can do it.

We don't know each other butI read your posts and your replies to others. So sorry you feel this way. x

Talk to us here when you get like that sweetie. I know how you feel though as I have been there quite a few times. Luckily I am to scared to put in a real death notice.. Life sucks, I know.. Lets just be happy for the few good days that we have.. Im with you my friend and I love you.. Y'Vonne

Lexi. I never knew about that..I am so sorry that you were feeling so bad,,,I know the despair tends to take over and swallow any sense that may be lurknig, I am so glad that you feel more positive...please, please hang on to whatever love you can feel if it ever happens again,,,the ones left behind are wrecked by a suicide and I mean wrecked,,and if there is something after life then we will all find out soon enough anyway so hang around and have some fun..love you Lexi, you are a good soul and deserve the best of life..never ever give up..xxxxx

I am glad you are here to tell that story.It must be hard to go through that and not want to tell anyone. I am sorry you went through this and are back to share you experience.

I didn't know any of that honey. I am so sorry you were feeling so low. I hope that you stay safe and take it one day at a time.

I didnt know any of this either hun. You just take care and im always around if you need to talk about anything. Thats what friends are for. Love ya loadsx