Journal Entry for August 27, 2008
August 27, 2008 6:56pm
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JonL0769
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About Me
JonL0769
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About Me
I've been dealing with depression and anxiety on some level for most of my life. No matter how good or bad the circumstances, it's still there. I've tried meds, therapy, self-medication(I'm also a recovering alcoholic). I thought I'd give this a try. I know it helped, when I quit drinking, to talk to other people who had similar problems.
I've been dealing with depression and anxiety on some level for most of my life. No matter how good or bad the circumstances, it's still there. I've tried meds, therapy, self-medication(I'm also a recovering alcoholic). I thought I'd give this a try. I know it helped, when I quit drinking, to talk to other people who had similar problems.
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Music, singing in my band, playing guitar, movies, computers.
Music, singing in my band, playing guitar, movies, computers.
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have been struggling with depression most of my life. I have been in and out of therapy since I was 8 years old and have been on several medications. I'm still searching for something that works for me.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- It was recently prescribed for me again. The doc took me off of it because of stomach problems that I ahd after I started taking it. I was on this about 4 years ago and it seemed to work a little.Wasn't on it for very long. No medical insurance and doctor ran out of samples.
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Find it hard to clear my head.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I try to be positive.
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- I took it about 12 years ago.I was drinking quit a bit at the time, so I can't really say if it was working or not.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Singing Somewhat Helpful
- I singand play guitar in a rock band.Music has always been a release and sometimes escape for me.Being a lead singer in a rock bandand performing live is almost like primal scream therapy. I can let out the anger,frustration and sadness without anyone thinking Im going crazy.They think its part of the show.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- They don't understand.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Didn't work for me.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I used to journal.It helps to get things out. But I stopped because I was worried someone might find it and read it.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Didn't work for me.
Close Anxiety
When I go somewhere,I get this overwhelming feeling that I need to get home.I can last about an hour,maybe 2,then I can't stand being out anymore.I get really tense,frustrated,impatient,my heart starts pounding and I just can't get home quick enough.It's not just when I go out either.I get that way at home sometimes when I start thinking of things I need to take care of.I get similar symptoms.I feel overwhelmed.I'm not sure if the problem I am having is anxiety,or not.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Xanax Working / Worked
Open Alcoholism
I am a recovering alcoholic. For years I new I had a problem,but could never admit that I was an alcoholic.I had been for treatment and to AA,but it didn't work.When I was finally beaten down enough,I realized that I couldn't go on living that way.I finally admitted to myself that I was an alcoholic.Nine years ago,I went back to AA and actually listened this time and did what they told me I needed to do.I'm still clean and sober.I'm not cured.I'm still in recovery.
Treatments
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- I was very active in AA for many years. I still try to live by the principles as best I can,but I don't attend meetings like I used to.
- Antabuse Somewhat Helpful
- It was definitely a deterrent,but not a solution.Wanted to drink,but knew I'd get sick. When the prescription ran out, I went back to drinking
- Detox Somewhat Helpful
- Detox got the alcohol out of my system.The rehab center taught me about the long and short term effects of alcohol on the body and mind. Made me scared of alcohol and drugs for awhile.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- It worked while I was going,but was only there because I was ordered by the courts.
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- In the beginning I could go long periods of time without drinking if I had a strong desire to do so. But, for me, willpower alone wasn't enough.
Open Shyness
I've always had a hard time talking to people, making friends and dating. Usually people either think I'm stuck up or anti-social.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Too Soon to Tell
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Took assertiveness training course taught by a therapist I was seeing.
- Self-esteem Somewhat Helpful
- Self-help Considering
- Singing Somewhat Helpful
- I sing in a band. I'm fine on stage,but still have problems talking to crowd or with people after shows.
Open Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed about 10 years ago. The symptoms haven't been as bad or as frequent as they were back then. But, lately I've been feeling a lot like I used to feel.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- They gave me a shot at a hospital during an episode. It seemed to work, it calmed me down. But, an hour or 2 later, I had a severe allergic reaction and had to be rushed back to the hospital.
- Depakote Working / Worked
- Worked while I was on it. Lost health insurance and couldn't afford it.
Open ADHD / ADD
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