jmsadie's Journal

Well I only had three breack downs today! They really were not that bad. I only got a little choked up. I am playing Santa right now for my little girl and it really sucks having to do it all alone. I had my two cousins and there husbands come over for dinner tonight. I set the table tonight for 6 people instead of 5 people. Really bad right, I did it with out even thinking about it. When I realized it, I started to cry a little. Not anything crazy, but for 10 years it has always been 6 of us. It really hit me tonight that it is not 6 of us any more it is only 5. That really hit me hard. I know that it is part of it, but when it hits it hurts. Well I guess life is a beach and then you die!