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3:44pm, March 9, 2009
So yesterday was my birthday, and we got 14 inches of snow!!! My parents were going to visit and take me out to dinner, but the weather was too bad. I was sad (because I wasn't going to see them) relieved (because I could eat my normal food) and annoyed (because I had restricted my intake so I would have enough cals for the evening without going over 1300) I had already picked out what I would eat. I was going to have an appetizer- shrimp coctail, without eating the sauce, and a side salad no dressing and no croutons for dinner. Then I would still have about 500 cals for whatever cake they got- which would be plenty for a small slice.
But it didn't happen. So I was stuck in my room decided what to eat at 4 pm to get my intake up (I had only eaten 600 cals so far) So I ended up saying "I'ts my birthday, I'll eat my small stash of high cal stuff" I ate some walnuts (yum) and a sugar free pudding. That was my "birthday cake"
But I was still feeling a bit down and sorry for myself because BASIC was cancelled too due to weather, so I went to the gym to relax. I was happy that thats one thing I do when I'm down now, last year on my birthday I binged multiple times. Using it as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted. Ew. Last year on my birthday I weighed almost 20 lbs more than this year.
But the some of my buds came to the rescue and we hung out for a long time, being rediculous. I seriously laughed so hard I almost broke a rib. haha It was really fun. Abby - my roomie gave me a stuffed animal and headbands (cause thats my thing) we had girl talk and took stupid pictures and took online quizzes (to find our stoner names. or ghetto names.) hahaa I'm apparently Shaniqua.
So anyways bithday turned out to be really fun, once I was focusing on FRIENDS, not stupid food.
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We have a foot of snow here! I only have a two hour delay today =[ oh well.
I remember this summer on my birthday. It was like the only time I didn't purge after I ate and I got a huge plate of pasta at the old spaghetti factory. I love how bulimia (without the bingeing) turns into anorexia. Lovely.
I'm glad when our with your friends the focus goes on them. Sometimes with me the focus is still on food. Thats when I give myself permission to eat junk. But at least you had some fun! Are your parents coming like next week or something?
Nice birthday cake btw Jamie, walnuts and sugar free pudding. YUM! HA even I hate that stuff and I was like raised on sugar free stuff being diabetic and all.
audgrl724
I'm glad you had a good birthday, even with the snow.
sophie09
That's too bad you couldn't celebrate with your family, but I'm glad your friends came through for you and gave you a nice birthday. I hate that food has to cause such anxieety on days where we should relax and feel pampered and not care. I get the same way. But your right, you can have so much more fun when you just forget about food and focus on better things, like friends. They seem awesome. I'm glad you have them.
skinnygirl2525
Glad you had a good birthday even though it was different from planned!! Friends are great!
DancerJ
yay! sounds like you had a really nice day :) make me happy too!
ajv357
boredom is a dangerous thing for those of us with EDs...thank god for friends eh?
missyS
glad to hear you had a good bday with your friends... it's great to have a distraction from ED. sorry to hear your parents couldn't make it - I hope you get to catch up with them soon.
naomi683