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freedomplease 
3:44pm, March 9, 2009
almost to my 45 day goal- next goal is 100 days- which is so long, but I don't see any reason to go back to old habits.
I had a great day!
1) Practice went FANTASTIC! I had energy, landed tons of triple sals, triple toes, and some triple loops. I ran through both long and short with out feeling exausted after, and I just felt on top of my game.
2) Encouraged by the way practice was going and how awesome my body feels- I ate 2000 cals today and didn't restrict at all.
3) I cut down my gym time today, without cutting cals. I decided, because my 2 hour practice was pretty intense, to only do 1/2 hour of cardio today (burned 260 cals) at a slightly higher level, than my normal hour and a half cardio session (burning 700 cals) I want to feel this good at practice tomorrow. I am guessing I burned about 500 cals (minnimum) from exercise today, so it'n not like I needed the extra hour (2.5 hours is plenty for someone trying to recover from obsessive exercise! haha)
4) My friend- who knows about my ED, caught me recording calories today. He said "I need to start holding you accountable for this," But we decided he would let me count for a couple weeks, until 2000-2500 cals became a habit. Then I would have to stop counting. The thought scares the crap out of me though. I hope I can let it go eventually. But I'm not ready yet.
Anyway. Love you all.
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You will be able to let it go eventually. Look how far you've come, and remember where you've come from. You're in a beautiful place now, and I know you're strong enough to stay there.
GiselleSylphide
Not calorie counting is so hard! but i am proud of u for cutting back on the exercise and keeping your intake up! 100 days will be a breeze for u, you are doing so well and your mind set is perfect for kicking ED's ass! way to go girlie :)
Jbird15
You're doing awesome; and it seems like you have a good friend to support you : ]
polgttam
Way to go on your goal so far! :)
ajv357
Tackle down one challenge at a time. You've managed to cut back on your exercise, which is so wonderful! The calorie counting can be your next obstacle to overcome.
I hope you have an even more successful day tomorrow!
Actress01
100 here u come!
missyS
wow it's good to hear you're doing so amazing! im so happy for you!
lwells035