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freedomplease 
3:44pm, March 9, 2009
Wow... 17 days, I'm so happy. The farthest I've been lately is 21 days. I'm determined to beat it. I'm so grossed out by myself right now. I'm really triggered and i don't even know why.
My boyfriend leaves for college- 9 hours away from mine, on Tuesday. But I am on a trip and skating competition starting Saturday. So this is our last week together. I'm going to miss him. I won't see him for a month... Not to mention I'm feeling insecure about him going to a christian college- hes going to meet lots of girls, that he could potentially want to be with. I know it's all in God's hands and if it's meant to be then it will all work out. But I guess thats why I've been feeling like this lately. I want to keep him and this is my attempt to stay in control of the situation (which doesn't work)
But other than this I'm doing good, skating and stuff is keeping me busy and I love it.
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Honey, from what you've written about this boy, he really loves you (or likes you if the l-word hasn't been brought up yet) and one pretty face or two isn't going to change that.
By the way, TAKE PICTURES. I love your skating pictures. They make me envious of skaters.
GiselleSylphide
Good job on doing so well =)
polgttam
I don't think you have anything to worry about. Your boyfriend has done some amazing things for you. I don't think he will be looking for someone else.
Good luck at competition. Come back and let us all know you won the gold.lol. Not to put pressure on you or anything.
skinnygirl2525
i know how sucky long distance can be...me and my bf are doing that now cept he is in another state at the time and i havent been able to see him for like 2 months. it can make you stronger tho when you have to rely on communication and let you realize if it's really worth it and how much you really care for that person! best of luck
lwells035